• It was all calm, then just like that it wasn't.

  I wish she had never seen me with the book 'Breakfast At Tiffany's'.

  Suddenly she was shouting about how I 'always get what I want', and how everything is 'always dictated' by me. As if I asked for this.

  My Dad was nearly crying telling her that I didn't like being this way, that I couldn't help it. I don't think it mattered.

  I know she hates me. I don't blame her.

  I keep thinking about suicide and dying, and the sadness is eating me from the inside out.

  I didn't even ask for the book. My Mum ordered it, then told me after.

• Suicide means you will appear before the Lord unprepared and full of Narcissistic/Tragic self-importance. DON'T RISK IT !

  
  

  Ask for help from Heaven. Do the next thing correctly. Take care of yourself.

  
  

  God loves you.

  NomadMonadon September 04, 2015   Link

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• Why the break for every sentence? This should be a single paragraph or two max.

  
  

  You don't really touch on why you are thinking about suicide or why you are drowning. I am guessing it is more than just about a book but you haven't really given us much to go on.

  sokornyon September 01, 2015   Link

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    Yeah I think we can assume it's more than just about a book. But I don't think a journal is always obligated to give people clear things to "go on" unless LoudSilences is writing this to be published, & even then. Sometimes it's ok to have mystery & make people think without having everything explained to them. Maybe they will write the answers in a later post, maybe not.

    leavesintheriveron September 01, 2015  

    Just seems like a bit of a cry out for help to me ... as you say perhaps more will be revealed later (or not).

    sokornyon September 02, 2015  

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