May 17, 2013
- May 17, 2013
- bcrxing
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i feel like im exploding with feelings. yet no words really come. the music is just filling me. some nostalgic feeling for things i never had. it just feels like something is missing. i cant help but feel like something huge is missing. i think i did high school wrong. is that even possible ? too many responsibilities. too many activities that i didnt actually invest in. i did nothing meaningful. i never found a niche. never found a group of friends. just awkward smattering of friends. its senior year and i dont fit in anywhere. i feel more at odds with the school and myself than i did freshman year. its clearly time to get out of there. i just hope i can make it next year; i hope i can actually make friends. im so scared. i think that i have a lot of fear inside me. self fulfilling prophecies and reciprocal determinism. i just dont know what to do. i didnt get to go to my dream school. even though im so excited for my college i also feel like im settling. i just feel so disappointed. and im so confused about what im to do for a relationship. i feel like i get nothing out of this relationship and im just clinging to it bc ive convinced myself i love him but he does NOTHING for me so why am i still here?! i feel so underappreciated its ridiculous. i just feel like i will look back and regret everything about my high school career i mean i almost already do. so if i end this relationship that was another year wasted ! but then if i dont im not really being fair to myself. i feel so embarrassed and so confused. and maybe i wanna just be single in college. but that also scares me. who will comfort me if hes not there. but then hes not going to the same school anyway. we will never see each other. and then if hes in that city its only going to get worse. we will only get more distant. but i dont wanna get hurt and i dont wanna hurt him. all these feelings inside me make me want to vom. its the unsettling constant anxiety. i cant take this anymore. i honestly imagine getting in car accidents that are not my fault when i drive just because i dont want to deal with it anymore but i want someone else to make that decision for me too. i think ive seen too many happy endings, read too many sappy teenage love stories.