• hey, maybe i'll start writing again.

  we live in an era of decadence, don't we? we spend time pining for what we cannot have while the things we love are wasting away slowly. one day, everything we love will be gone and we will still be pining. this is from the heart, nothing less. i looked for validation wherever i went and found it. sadly, validation is temporary whereas confidence is permanent. strength should not be relative, it should fixed inside of you. it should not be shaken by anything external.

  honestly though, we are not strong. we are determined. determination is better. strength CAN falter because nobody can keep it together all the time. determination means continuing on even when you are not strong. and remember, it is going to happen a lot. you are falling apart slowly, but fuck it. take what you need, leave what you don't, and keep going. "why?" because why the hell not? what's the other option? crying in your room all night, smoking tons of weed, drinking till your sick? fuck it all. let it hurt. let it tear your to pieces. but keep going.

  and i know this sounds stupid, but it isn't for you. this is for me to remember, for me to feel better. because i don't feel better. and if we're being honest again, i wish i was in love with someone who was in love with me too. but i'm not ready for that. i'm too messed up. i want to be independent. i want to be okay with being lonely.

  love is a disaster; loneliness is a desert.

  i want to conquer both

• Perhaps you are worthy of visiting my island...

  
  

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  NomadMonadon March 28, 2013   Link

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