why do i always care more for people than they do for me? i wish i'd know what they really thought...i know jen doesn't really like being my friend. she really wants me to separate from her.. i know it. am i just there because she doesnt want to be alone? would she drop me easily? jessica hurts me so much. and i don't stand out for her...i'm..just someone else. i almost know that she doesn't consider me a real friend. who else? there's no one in real life. and even online...ahra doesn't like getting into emotional things..gary..jose..who?! i've always been alone. and i'll always be. why can't i find someone to love? someone to hang out with whenever..someone to talk to. i hate myself so badly right now. i really want to cry. i want to sit and look outside and cry. i'm a failure at life..at living everywhere i go, i'll be alone another figure to everyone and nothing more.