• when I found out I missed the set. You can ask your friends. They all looked at me like I was crazy, or like they knew but politely pretended it wasn't painfully obvious that I am in love with you. And I thought, or at least I hoped, that I was special, or somehow above reproach. Stupid me. You treat me just like the rest of them--with derision and contempt. All I wanted was to talk to you for more than five seconds at a time without being told you wanted to leave and get away from me. I don't understand why you treat me like this. I love you, you stupid jerk. This is why I wanted to keep this situation out of reality, so what I feel could never be diminished by cruelty, and so we would never have the opportunity to be disappointed in one another. However, when you *did* let me hold you, and I could feel you and breathe you in (you smelled very nice)--that was the best I've felt in a very long time. I want more of that. I want it on your bedroom floor.

  Before I got to the show,I was convinced that you were going to find a way to kiss me tonight. I had it all worked out in my mind. How naive I am! I'd better just stick to what I know is real. I am drunk and my pride is hurt; maybe tomorrow this will seem like no big deal--or maybe I will still be angry. I don't understand why it has to be like this. This is fucked up and stupid. Why can't we love w1thout consequence? This is why I am jaded and withdrawn and put walls up. I'm tired of being hurt. I thought maybe you could change that; that's why I let you in.

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