• My stupid journal won't let me reply. Oh well. I'm not rude, it's just not working lol. So hey what's up guys and gals, gals and guys? My finger's sore, and it bleeded :D So i went out with my godmother today, Juanita. Which, i completely forget to say, IS the friend that's paying me to help her sons! She's my friend AND my godmother lol. I helped her do a bucket load of cleaning yesterday today i went to church with her. I'm not really a church goer, i'm not religious or anything but it was definitely something new! It was fun! Tomorrow i'm going back as Mondays are homework days. The original plan was today that we were gonna go to church, we go to Morrisons to get some food, then my mum and my brother come over for 3pm and we'd cook for them. But my brother doesn't want to bother and Mum wasn't feeling to great. She said she would've come if she was ok but i don't believe her. I get home from Juanita's and tell her about the exciting day i've had out and she's not really interested. I think she doesn't like me going out. You know what she said to me the night before i went to her house yesterday? "I don't want you going out, it's cold outside." I'm 18 years of age. Is she taking the piss? I have no education, my health has gone to pot, but Juanita is helping me get my confidence back to do things. Mum just breaks my spirit every time. She makes me feel so guilty that i'm going out and doing something for myself and having a nice day. Like i should be spending time with them. They've had 18 years out of me and they've put me through hell and back growing up. You really think i wanna spend time with you?! But seriously, it hurts. I want to get better and be a better person but it's like it's not right to her. I almost didn't go out with Juanita today because it's easier for when i'm at home. But i came round and i'm still having a good day. It just hurts that she can't seem to get her head round what i'm doing. What's gonna happen when i get me a job? How bitter is she gonna be then? Oh well...

• It was a loose bit of skin and i got it caught. It still hurts today lol.

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• What did you do to your finger?

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