• Ronnie signed up for the National Guard without me! D: He told me at breakfast this morning :( He is starting basic training on Wednesday. We will still have PT together though, Monday, Wednesday and Friday morning. Bad ass Army group went with me to the gym (: Everyone just watched as we set the new standard of working out. Me, Ronnie and AJ. It was great. Tomorrow night we are going to run the two miles to practice for the PT test on Wednesday. I am excited. It will be so hard, but I will do this. Happy note, about boys. I always have some guy that either likes me, or I like them. Alex and I are finished, and I came to terms with that. Even though we aren't together anymore, he will always have a place in my heart as my first love. Paul and I are better as just friends I think. He and I are going two separate places with our lives in a very short time. Now, this guy Patrick, who I think I have mentioned before, admitted that he is interested in me. Patrick is a 23 year old pre-medical graduate student in the U.S. Army. He has light brown hair, bright blue eyes, and is so helpful. He has offered to help me with anything that I am studying in school, to help me get back on my feet with running after my knees blew out, to be my running partner and to push me til I am capable of doing the best all the time. He is really sweet. I received a text this afternoon when I woke up from my nap saying "Are you single?" It was very random, I mean we weren't having a convo before that, so I was surprised. I just said yes, and asked why he was asking. The response I got was "I'm curious. I am talking to you because I am really interested in you." Of course this made my day lol. We continued talking for a bit, and I explained to him why I was stalling hanging out with him. It's a self esteem issue that I have. I am not the skinniest girl in the world, no doubt about it. I am nowhere near skinny either. But I am working on it. That's why PT is so important to me. And what I got back was "I think you are beautiful, and I am not shallow." That's literally all that I needed to hear. He's picking a day to hang out this week before I go home for the weekend as I type. I figured why not give him a shot? What is the worst that can be done? I've got nothing to lose.

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