Gymnasiym-Boring. -Jessica goes to Shelby, cus dey is much better friends.- Ap Euro-Boringgg -boring, but i saw roburrto and i wanted to pounce on him- Algebra-nothing -roberto . squeeee- geomatry. i swear he was looking at me....god, he was probably just looking over like i do, but im so scared hell hurt me, or that he misses me, for some reason, i dont know why he would, and that ill miss that oppurtunity...he was a good friend..a fun one..ah..i remember those days when i'd just tell him bout the play and he asked to come along...that was great... or those times wed talk about nothing..literally..just sit there till the bell rang, even tho he called me over..i really miss him. i lost him, because of my stupidity...god, i wish i could make things right. but would the friendship have even survived? we werent in many classes and we didnt talk at lunch. he always prefered alex over me. even if i am 'emo' now, and he labels himself same, it doesnt mean we'd match up. hes scared my life, but i yearn for equated pain. theres nothing i can do now. i hope he talks to me. i really really do. -nothin'- homeroom was nothing, then lunch oh boy, i know its rude of me, but i feel above them. i hate this feeling. I AM NOT SUPERIOR. we are equal. i hate this. i feel cleaner, more educated, better, but i hate myself for it. and that guy is such a bigot. he doesnt want to be around black people, yea nice, kthnx. and they dont care if they fail?! i have never been with someone like that. I mean, i get disappointed with A's sometimes. I do not belong there. and roberto...ahhh...i have no chance with him..i just wish that he doesnt think im like icky. -nothing- english was ok, jose was as poseur as ever, and superbowl ads were good, but i hate where i sit. yea, ryan, phil, pawel, all around. how exquisite. mr hunsaker can die, kthnx. -fun- chem was alright. art club, yadda yadda yadda oh, but may i comment on Octavio? Yea, he is super cute... i would do a lot to be his... he just isnt gay. even if he was bi.. no way...he's to poseur mexican gangster to be liberal and openminded. and hes in the dumb classes. WTF is it with me and the superior thing? I hate it, but I expect too much out of me and the people i know. no one can live to my expectations. I expect myself to get such high grades, to be socially acceptible...but i expect more of others. i want them to strive..i work them like dogs to perfect what they have..its good, but i have a problem.