• I really could have done with coming here yesterday. But it wasn't working. So what i do instead?? I think! Stupid. Grrr... I thought about a few things. One being some friends i've lost along the way. You know, people that just go... *poof*... I would name them all but they might read this and come after me :D some i miss, some i wish i could miss. Some i loved dearly :( It's strange how any stranger can make such a large impact on your life, then they just go. Whether you lost contact or you had an argument or you broke up or whatever. It really puts into perspective who you do have and love. Not that they don't already mean the world to me. We're supposed to be having a heatwave. Well i'm ok for a minute so it must be safe. Well if you don't hear from me again you know that there definitely was a heatwave and i was an unlucky fizzler. So far this morning's been ok. Yesterday was a disaster though. I even went back to sleep! My head was not on this planet, i was somewhere way else. And i only cried yesterday, i didn't sob like i said i would. I don't like crying anymore. I should only cry when something happens. Now i feel like i'm holding my breath because of all this and i don't think there's any need to as things like this don't usually work for me. But I feel guilty for feeling like i do, for hoping that i could still have a chance in this. And I don't want to make him feel unhappy with anything. Maybe i'm just letting it all out now so if it does happen i won't cry then? I don't know. Of course i'll cry if it happens. It'll be the one of the worst days of my life! But what could i do or say about it? There would be nothing TO say. Anything said would feel like a nail in my coffin, and i've felt a few of those! But i dunno... Gotta wait and see. "It's time to call your emotions round and drink tea with the ones you like least. Surely you can agree on something" - Scott Matthews

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