• Isn't today supposed to be an amazing day for me? I had my party, it's April Fools Day and it's holidays for a hwole week, so why do I, right now, feel as if I am about to burst into tears? I will tell you why, it's because of my mom. She has now brought my dad and Ruth intot this whole fight, and Ruth is screaming her head off and she is crying buckets of water. MY granny has obviously had enough if it too because she just walked out of the kitchen with a bottle of whiskey, litterally in the bottle.I can't tell if she is going to drink it now, or if she is just hiding it from my parents. (sigh) I'm a 13 year old girl, is this really what I am supposed to be going through??? I just hate her. I hate my mom, I honestly completely hate her. Well, on better notes, school today was... Well it was short, and I am completely happy about that. I really need a holiday, I am always so tired nowadays, and I don't know if it's because of the long hard days or because I just stay up too late. Teagan and my party today was actually a lot of fun. I took the photos on Teagans camera and they are now on Facebook. I got the worst presents ever though. I guess that's what I deserve though, for only having the party for the presents. It kind of backfired on me, the party was actually what was the good part, and then the presents were actually what were bad. Anyway, today was great up until now. I have Saul's barmi tomorrow (his shul service) and I hope it isn't boring. I usually enjoy the talking to friends part of shul, and when we are actually in shul listening to the prayers it usually just gives me time to think. About everything. I was wtching my slideshows today (the ones that I made with the music and stuff) and I quite enjoyed it. I can't wait until Kaylas batti, then I can finally do my speech which inclused one of thos funny videos. It will be very funny. (sigh) I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm talking about all the fighting that goes on in my house. It's usually between my mom and my dad, adn I just donn't understand why it has to happen. It happens because my mom drinks too much. It doesn't exactly make her drunk, just in a very very very bad mood all of the time, and that is why the fighting only happens at night, because that is the time she drinks. My dad does it too, but he keeps it under control at least. Well, tonight hasn't been the best and I would go to bed but my parents are fighting with Ruth, and you know, we share a room so it shouldn't be too easy. I just hope tomorrow is much better than today.

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