• Okay so today was good fro the most part of it, although I do feel a little depressed because of this one thing that happened today, but I will get to that later. What I particularly liked about today was that it was spent mostly with my great friends, David, Dylan and Emma. Yes, we have all become amazing close again which is amazing. The cycle test was okay and everybody looked hilarious in their Purin costumes( I didn't dress up). Anyway, today was quite fun, now onto the horrible part. So I was sitting withe evryone and, well lets just call him DB, so DB comes to sit next to me and he is busy on his Blackberry. He then makes some inappropriate comment like he always does, and then does some other thing. So then he goes onto this one picture and points it to me just so that I would read it. Now what it said has made me depressed and I will explain why in a minute. So what it sai was " I like you, and I know you think it's stupid but I can't help it". Those aren't the exact words but I definitely know it started off by saying "I like and you and I know you think it's stupid", I just can't rememebr the rest. So after I read it I look at him in a sort of sarcastic way because I knew he was joking. At that moment while I was looking at him, even though I knew he was joking, my stomache got butterflies. He then said, "Ha, I'm kidding" and my stomache completely dropped. I don't know if it's because I like him, or because he said that he liked me. I still know he was joking but I have this weird thing about me. No matter how the person says it, whether the person is joking or not, if the person (a boy, but like if he is hot, or a good friend of mine) says that they like me, I just... start liking them, no matter who they are. Now the problem is, I can't tell whether I actually like him or if this is just that fase I go through for like a week when someone tells me that they like me. I just got really upset when he said he was kidding, even though I knew he was. I am completely depressed. Okay so I'm not depressed, but I am reeeaaalllyyy sad. I was just watching "50 First Dates" and when they were walking and holding hands, I just thought of that me me and him. It's like, I can't have a day when nothing goes wrong. If something good happensto me, then something bad has to happen as well, and the better the good thing is, the worse the bad thing is. URRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! I probably don't like him though, I mean I have once and there has been a time when we have both liked each other, but I don't think it's going to happen again. I know it is very early to be writing but I just couldn't keep it inside of me any longer. (sigh) I just don't know what to do anymore, I will just have to deal with it and see what happens.

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