• This is my 1st journal enrty iv ever done on the internet, so i dont kno how i should do this...so im just gonna say sum of the recent events in my life. about 2 months ago i had surgery on my toe coz it was infected. when the doc started he stuck this bigass needle into my toe an they jus bout the whole way thru, they were pushin the skin out on the other side an it hurt like hell, then he left so the local anesthetic in the needles cud start workin. when he came back my toe was a lil numb, but not all that much an he went ahead an started to cut my toe open an that hurt more than them needles. i dunno wat he was doin coz i had my eyes closed screamin in my head, but i was picturing it all inmy head. the anesthetic wasnt workin 2 great. after a lil while i thought that if i went an thought bout sumthin other than the surgery it wud take my mind off the pain. the 1st thing 2 cum 2 mind was eminem's just lose it video, which had recently came out. then soon enuff, the surgery ended an i went home in a hugeass bandage. i cant think of nuthin important that happined between then an bout 3 weeks ago. that was when i hooked up wit my 1st girlfriend, Hannah Gulyas. we were pretty damn happy 2gether until bout 4 days ago when she jus stopped talkin 2 me 4 no apparent reason. thats been tearin me up inside coz i dont kno y she did it. ima dump her next monday at skool, an ima make it hard on her. she looked me strait in the face at least 2 times since 4 days ago an 1 of the times i even said hi 2 her 1st an she jus looked at me like i was crazy....an that really fucked my mind up good, i kept thinkin i fucked up sumhow, or mayb she was cheatin on me or sumthin an she jus cudnt face up 2 me. i cdunt keep my mind off it, i really was happy with her, even if it was 4 only 3 weeks. but fuck her, i dont need her i cud get jus bout any girl i feel like if i wanted 2. an fuck this journal 2 rite now i gotta go do sum other shit rite now an talkin bout hannah's got me pissed so i think ima check in wit this later. stay outta truble

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