• Okay so everything is just so complicated. Last night when I said I had to go, I did leave, but then I came back on and Jarred Berman started talking to me. He was telling me about how he likes Teagan and I was giving him suggestions on how he can get her to like him. Anyway, we had a very nice long conversation and then he says "actually I like 3 people" so I said "Really? Who?" and he said Teagan, Kayla and you". Can you believe it, he said that to me! Anyway, I was telling him the many reasons why he was making a huge mistake, you know, I told him because I was ugly and I'm not like the other girls, and he said "No, you are pretty, and the other girls have no personality like you do" so then we got into this whole thing about how I was trying to prove him wrong and he was just disagreeing with me, and the he said " If Teagan doesn't work out, I am going to ask you out" so I told him he was, once again, making a huge mistake and then we got into a notehr thing with the proving wrong and the diagreeing and stuff. Anyway, the thing is, he lieks Teagan a lot more than he likes me, so I'm just still helping him with Teagan and stuff, He asked me to tell Teagan some stuff and then I told her and after I told her I asked her if she liked him back and she said no. I was trying to convince her that she should go for it, but she just won't budge. Anyway I told Jarred this and he was pretty upset, but then i told him that he should give her a Valentines day card (ofc ourse only on Valentines day) and I told him this adorable story of how he could give it to her. Anyway, we were just having fun talkign and stuff but then my sister had to come and ruin it all because she wanted to go on the computer, so I said I would sms him and he said, ya Okay cool, so I did sms him, but he never replied. He didn't reply last night in the middle of our convo, and it just annoys me. I don't know what it is about him, I don't need him to like me or anything, he is just someone I want to become friends with, I don't know why though. Apparently he is such a playa, but... I don't know, there is probably something wrong with me, I've never even had a conversation with him face to face (sigh). Anyway, Kayla was there with Teagan when I told her at hip-hop because she started hip-hop today. I don't mind it, but I just don't know what Sidne is going to say.Today was the first lesson for us ever since the holidays, and it was great, it's just, next week we are going to be away and they are starting a new dance and now we are going to miss it and it's just so horrible. I don't even want to go to Klitah, it's not going to be nice. I am going to be left out, and yes there is a talent show, but what talent do I have? have no talent at all. I just hope someone brings their guitar so that I can play it, I don't know how I'm going to go so long without playing guitar. It's not good for anything, Klitah is just going to be horrible, the thing I love about camp with the grade is that we get to talk with each other, but I don't think I'm going to get to know anybody better. I had this dream last night, it was such a great dream, and guess who was in it, you know what I'll just tell you, Jarred Berman! I don't like him, I know it may seem that I do, but I don't. I have never had a conversation with him and... (sigh), I'm pretty sure I don't like him. I don't know who I like, it's all just so confusing. Adam keeps annoying me, why me? Why does he have to choose to annoy me? Why not someone better than me, like Teagan or Isabel or... Someone better, Okay I need to go shower now, but I will be right back... (practically and hour later)Sorry I took so long but there were so many things going on after the shower, I was shaving my legs and some how I managed to cut the very tip of my thumb,whih is the most awkward place anyone could ever cut themselves!Today is just not my day. My parents were fighting again so my mom did what she usually does every night (that's how much they fight) and she stormed off and went to bed, how could she do this to me? I need to have my fringe cut or Mrs. Cook is going to send me home, the highlight of my day today is waking up and remembering my dream, it really was a great dream. Ruth once again hasn't gotten my art picture yet, I can't believe she just forgets like that! URGH! I hate not having that picture, I drew it the first time and then it got messed up from the dye, and it took me like two lessons to actually finish it, and then I drew it again! ANd it is the best picture I have ever drawn in my entire life. I just feel like I want to burst into tears, and I highly doubt tomorrow is going to be any better because we have our first cycle test, and it's on Maths! My worst subject! I'll bet tomorrow is going to be just as bad as today, in fact, I think it will be much worse. I also found out that my birthday isn't only until 27 days have passed! 27 DAYS! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE??? The weekend will probably suck too- OUCH! I just poked myself on the eyeball! What is the matter with me? You see, it's Grant and Haydens barmi and Isabellas batti, now I want to go to Isabellas first, and my mom said I can but I can only stay for an hour and 15 minutes, and then I must go to Grant and Haydens, but I just want to see what Teagan is doing, and then I'll decide... Tomorrow. Not something I'm looking forward to. Well, I just don't really feel like talking anymore, so I'm just going to go. (sigh) bye.

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