• I feel like crap. I just feel so horrible and I feel like such an idiot, I should never be alowed to talk to anybody unless I'm in class. I asked my dad to get me something, he said he couldn't, I had a fit, he soon went to buy me the thing, and apparently it cost about R800! By the time he had come back, I had already found a solution or the problem I had! I feel like such a bad person! When he was gone and I was sitting by the TV with Emily, she said "The thing you made dad go out to buy cost R800" I told her to shut up and she said "Okay, fine, I just want you to think about that". Why did she have to go and make me feel like I am feeling? I deserve it, I deserve to suffer this feeling, I seriously try my hardest not to cry, but today, I had to rush to my room just so that I wouldn't be seen with the tears in my eyes. I am just a terrible, terrible person. I know I have always been saying it, but now I really know for sure that it's true. I am the worst person in this country! I just don't know why I even let myself speak to other people, maybe I'm just sick of people always telling me that I look depressed. I'm not depressed, but I think it's going to take a lot more than school to get me smiling. I don't care what people say to me, I'm used to it now, and I don't need them to understand. I completely hate Emily, but then again, she WAS the one that made me come to my senses about the whole me not being allowed to speak to anyone. I always say and ask for the wrong things. School today was great, Mr Frank is awesome, and I don't see why everyone hates Mrs Cook so much, yes she is strict but when she's teaching, she's really not that bad. I hate Adam, I seriously just wish he would stop trying to talk to me on facebook, I just hate him! I didn't want it to be like this when I come to the point that I need to actually start ignoring him, but he has just become so ignore-worthy! I just can't stand him. And I have to sit behind him in Hebrew, my 4 worst things: 1. Sidne 2. Emily 3. Mom 4. Sitting in the same room as Adam in a Hebrew lesson! Not even joking! I just... I am just not in the mood to deal with him right know, I am seriously feeling sad. I just can't believe how much of a horrible person I am

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