• You know how last night I said I was going to go to bed early? Well, that didn't really work out so well for me. I got into bed at 11:15, and ended up going to sleep at 1:30 AM. I was going crazy, I started crying twice, I just don't knwow hat it was but I couldn't fall asleep. I sat up at about 12 and I went to go get some juice which I had two glasses of, and then I tried to go to sleep again but still couldn't so I ended up drawing in my book, I'm telling you, there is something wrong with me. I don't suffer from insomnia because this is like the first time it's happened to me, well it's happened to me before but only for like 20 minutes, but now it was two whole dreadful hours. I can't believe I started crying, what does this mean? I know it sounds crazy but I kind of hope it will happen again tonight because I just want to tell my parents that I am too tired to let Liat come and play at me tomorrow. I seriously do NOT want her to come, it's going to completely ruin my day! I hate arrangements and sleepovers, I just hate them. Well, I have fun with Isabel, but other then that I completely hate them. They are just so awkward, especially if the friend is coming to my house. I have nothing against my house, it's just I hate it when they come, there's nothing to do here except watch TV or play on the computer, well, nothing tht my friends would be interested in. Especially Liat, it will just be so awkward, we will probably end up just talking most of the time. I guess the only thing that bothers me is that she is coming for so long, she's coming at 1:30 and then leaving at 6:00!!! SIX WHOLE HOURS! Believe me, they will not go by quickly. I tried on the dresses my sister gave me for the barmitzvah in two days time, I hate them. They just don't look nice on me, they make me look like a nun in some type of way. I guess I'll just go in my jeans and my black shirt. I can't decide whether I'm excited or not about sleeping over at Isabel that night, and then Sidne wants me to sleep at her again the next night, I just hate it all! I don't want Liat to come, I don't want to go to Isabel and I don't want to go to Sidne! I want my days off! Why do they get so bored with themselves that they have to call someone to play or sleep over, and why me? Of all people, me! I don't know, maybe I'm just crancky from the night I had. Anyway, fingers crossed that I have a temperature. I bought my new school shoes today, they are hideous! I don't understand why they are even making us wear stupid shoes, and why now? If you are goiong to make us wear them, start from greade 1, not years into school. Everyone was perfectly happy wearing their own shoes, why did they have togo and ruin that for us, it was the only thing we got to wear willingly. Urgh! Well, at least we had a choice between the shoes, I got the nicest ones, well to me they were the nicest ones. The other ones were just way too hideous to even consider. I just hate them! I hate the fact that school is starting soon! I hate the fact that I have to start going to bed earlier! I hate the fact that I'm not going to know anything to do with the school grounds! I'm just so... Nervous. Well, I guess everyone is. I better get going to bed now before I type on this until it's 12:00, so 'night.

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