• I didnt want to write last night.
  
  
  It would have been paragraph after paragraph of endless sad dribble.
  
  
  I was reminded of him..again. I started up my truck..and there is Billy Joel Playing..BOOM! hes in my mind. After that...Im seeing planes...thinking "I should be on one of those planes, going to see him" then I pass the food basics where we shopped, then the beautiful hotel where he stayed...and I can see the pool inwhich we swam together, played like children, He was SO hot wet. Oh so HOT.
  
  
  I was a horrible wreck by the time I walked threw the door.
  
  
  I so wanted to write him..or call.
  
  
  But I resisted. I dont know where I got the strength from..But I mustered it up. Going to bed early helped, seeing Im always weakest in the evenings.
  
  
  
  
  
  This morning, I feel so much better. Sleep gives me strength.
  
  
  I put on my new top...and my new shoes..that are Officially killing my feet..and put on my new perfume.
  
  
  I splurged and bought myself 4 bottles of different Burberry.
  
  
  Ive smelled it on other ladies..and always liked it.
  
  
  I found a huge Sale..and bought Brit, London, Summer, Tender Touch.
  
  
  I love them all...and I find they lift my spirits...or perhaps its the odd compliment that is doing that.
  
  
  
  
  
  I have to go work out tonight..so Im mentally talking myself into going. Its an arguement, between me myself and I...to make sure, I get to that gym. If anything, I will go to the pool, and do some laps. I tell myself "its only 1 hour out of your night".
  
  
  Plus, I always feel better after.
  
  
  
  
  
  Time to start my day..ive had to change the radio Station 2 times, 98.1 is just too sappy. 97.3 will be my office friend today..they dont play half as many sad songs.
  
  
  I dont need any sad songs today. Nope, I need to find balance.
  
  
  
  
  
  May I have the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
  
  
  The courage to change the things I can,
  
  
  And the wisdom to know the difference."
  
  
  Reinhold Niebuhr, 1926
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

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