• Hi, I'm a teenage girl. My mom and dad got Divorced about 9 years ago after having 5 kids togeather (all girls including me). My father was abusive to my mom I have terrible memories that a kid should of never had to go through I experienced some very sad things. after they got divorced My dad moved out of our house and lived with his mom, that of course lead to weekend visits. I Was not very close to my dad at all. More with my mom I loved my mom with all my heart. after a year or so passed by after the divorce she started dating. Then that lead to a boyfriend and didn't work out, but one after the other constant men in and out of the house. Every one which i despised and never grew a bit close to. I was VERY protective of my mother. one of her bf's when i was younger showed me his but when he was drunk. My mother dranked and smoked I'll get into the whole smoking nonsense when i start on what our whole 'religion' part of our life was like. Anyways one guy she met on an online dating site she was talking to for about a year and a half on the side of things. She never told me or any of my sisters, but then she mentioned it to us and told us how close they've grown and how much they like eachother. I didn't take her seriously untill awhile later she told me that 'Kevin' asked her to marry him. and that He had lived in VIRGINIA, wellllll we lived in CALIFORNIA. Thats pretty damn far apart. Then before i knew it. My dad knew everything and we were off to virginia me my mother and four other sisters. Me?...well at the tiem i was still young and didn't think SOO highly of it I knew I was gunna see my dad and other family again. In fact I was a bit excited. UNTIL we moved in with him and his 8 year old little son. One night Kevin came home drunk and was yelling at my mom about some stuff (I was watching from the stair way the whole time my sister vanessa was sleeping down in the living room while the rest of us upstairs sleeping excpet me. as the arrguing grew louder it grew into a shove from my mom to kevin then kevin throwing my mom against the wall I began to cry alll that woke up my sisters, but kevin stepped on VANESSA'S HEAD thats right. out comes my other sister with a baseball bat. anyways I ran into the kitchen I was about 11 didn't know what the hell to do. I grabbed the phone and dialed the number i was raised knowing '911'. tell them what had happened and that we need 'police mans over'. i was crying Kevin had leftt outside somewhere and my mom wasn't really hurt, but crying as well checking to see if vanessa was alright. they sent abulance and police cars right away with in minutes they arrived arrested kevin and checked vanessa thank god nothing was wrong with her. That was just the second domestic Violence scene that happened with my mom. shortly affter that seperation my mom and us still living in Virginia. While my dad visited every couple months or so. WELL she met another man named 'Adam' He had a 6 year old little son. YEAH we moved in with him and they ended up getting married within a year. Everyday i grew a bit more apart from my mom angryy that she made me had to go threw all that SHE was the one that made the idiotic choices to get a bf or get engaged or move to VIRGINIA get married for the second time. all of that was on my mom. Soon we were just enemies I disliked her alot. we got in one huge fight that resulted in me saying i no longer want to live with her along with the rest of my sisters. so the next month my dad came to visit he bought 5 MORE tickets to go back to California. When i got back to cali I started school again there. I knew I had gone through soooo much. YOU KNOW WHAT . I was a damn good kid. My Uncle is a pastor (christianity) I was born in it while both of my parents were hyprocrites at the time. I still followed everything i learned when i rarely went to church i loved it. I was excellent in school I was a fuking great kid, why would a kid like that deserve to have such a fuked up life like that?...My answer... I have no Idea. Well I didn't call my mom ever when i lived in cali, but at the bottom of my heart I missed her like crazy at times i felt like bursting into tears, just because of it. But...ONE NIGHT while me my older sister Celena dad And Stepmother Marisella were outside on the patio just talking about school and stuff My dad gets a phone call. I really dont remember who it was from but, they told him my mom tried committing suicide and there still not sure if she'll be okay. She took more then half of a bottle of sleeping pills Overdosed severly and swallowed them down with alchol. she was in the hospital. I Guess a week before that happend Adam and my mom got in a hugee arrgument about stuff Id remember what. but he started choking her and threatend her not to tell anyone. all she told was her sister and her sister told the police that arrested Adam. When my father explained all this to me. i felt my heart shrinking i was squeezing my breaths in and not letting them out I felt as if I was dieing of sadness. I bursted into tears and ran up the stairs into my room. while my stepmom was hugging my sister celena telling he rits alright my dad ran after me. i Was furious I was sad I was heartbroken I was overwhelmed of shock. I felt far from horrible. And that was the saddest time of my life. my dad got me to stop crying after a couple hours. I kept saying my moms dead. just the thought of that. Killed me, but in the morning he got a call saying shes in the hospital but she'll be alright. My dad told me and I felt soooooo relieved, but still was dieing to be with my mother. And hug her like I did before.

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