forgeting my body because its a paradox

  • November 03, 2004
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  • Long time No see. I’ve had the best morning. This morning I got up at 6:00. Roughness I’ll tell ya what. I was meeting some guys at a church I visited for breakfast. I stood beside my dresser and considered my options. On one hand I was tired weak feeling and my bed was right beside me, and looking at my roommate sound asleep didn’t help either. Every time I wake up early I always seem to tell myself if I don’t get more sleep I’m going to fall over asleep during the day or just die. It’s ridiculous and untrue. I have run off four hours of sleep many a times. And my other optio n was that I promised those guys that I would meet them for breakfast. I have been trying to keep my word. So many times I compromise or don’t really mean what I say when I tell someone I will call them. Hold me accountable guys. So I started walking up to the church and then I started running because walking is boring. I got there and we talked for a little while. I was still kinda out so I sat there listening in daze. Life’s no fun in a daze. You gotta talk. I met a guy who named Micheal who had been abandoned when he was 12 and was homeless for years. He said he was a drug addict until he got saved. We ate eggs and all the typical things (North) Americans eat for breakfast. Eventually we started talking and the conversation turned to the argument between communism and capitalism. One of the guys is kind of a hippie and liked some of Marxist ideas but didn’t adhere to the whole idea. The other guy was about some capitalism. The contrast between the two is an interesting discussion. Communism and capitalism both have their perks but The pastor of the church was there and he empathized with both sides(because he had read both Adam Smith’s book on capitalism and Marx’s communist manifesto) and helped make it a fair discussion rather than an argument. Arguments are pointless. Discussions and dialogues are fruitful. I’ve learned that I cannot argue someone into accepting Christ. I have to listen to them. Jesus was always gentle when talking to people not yelling. He helped people understand the emptiness they had and then helped them understand. Anyways, we decided that capitalism had its greediness and communism had its godlessness and they were both man made, thus the root answer to all our problems is the Gospel of Jesus Christ, who heals the heart one individual at a time. Good stuff. So I caught a ride back to the dorm, so I could get my stuff to study. When I walked in the room it was 8:00 and my roommate was still asleep. I thought about if I had stayed in bed, how I would have missed out on this fellowship with guys and the discussion. And I wasn’t even tired at all. I was wide open. This made me think of a verse I read the other day “There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death” (Proverbs 14:12) I thought that it was right for me to go back to bed and break my promise to the guys, but in reality that Christian fellowship kicked my day off in the right direction. I thought I was right, but I was wrong. And then I made the connection with sleeping and being dead. If your always sleeping your not living. Sleeping is boring. Waking up and smelling the coffee is life.
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