• Saw that girl again yesterday. It's been a week since that possible revelation came to a head. I still can't get over her though. She's like a magnet even though I'm pulling trying to pull away. Being near her is only going to make the angst worse, I tell myself. No use. I spent nearly of all my free periods trying to get a tiny glimpse. Whenever I do it's a nice feeling coz she's so cute but at the same time I know I've gotta keep my distance as much as possible coz she's probably got someone anyway. Such a dilemma. The funny thing is that as I write this, I'm listening to Pearl Jam's I Got Id. How apt. Even though it reflects this situation perfectly I still feel somewhat comforted. It's hard to let go sometimes, it really is, but I decide that the best way to show my love for her was to stay away and give her space. Still, it's so hard. To make matters worse I watched Rafters last night (Aussies reading this will know what I mean) and Alex was saying how painful it was seeing his brother hook up with someone and saying how 'everyone's got someone except me'. I nearly cried. I wanted to hug him and tell him I'm alone too. This journal is the only relief I've got apart from chatting with my new friend from Cali. Where the future lies I have no clue, but for now I'll just have to stick with slugging it out with homework and just wait and see where life takes me afterwards. Goodbye all and thx for reading ;)

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