• They all decided I set the curve on the Chem II test, I didn't. They all decided I would receive the Research Paper Award, I didn't. They all decided I would receive the Enriched English III Award, I didn't. When did I become the nominee for intelligence? "Hey, Kat, what is an amine?" "A neurotransmitter, like serotonin or dopamine, dop-amine; amine." "I knew she would know." I chose decided males from the freshmen class and began smiling at them daily with my eyes slightly squinted as if trying to force happiness out of them, until their eyes lit up when they recognized my face in passing period. When their scared eyes turned to happy, I began avoiding each of them, eventually finding a new one to smile at. Today an old one furrowed at me as I passed, mentioning I was sad, I nodded and looked ahead, taking the back stairs. Am I doomed to be socially strange always? "Hi, my name is Kathlynn, but people call me Kat for short, you can if it is easier for you." This is how I started every conversation and friendship I ever had as a child. It mattered not the setting, the words remained the same. This evening I took short steps toward Jare's door, the air was thick with a muggy feeling, making my skin feel sticky and heavily hung on my bones. I gave him his birthday gift as his grandmother's dog escaped through the open door. We go on a search and find her to be a in the backyard of Shae's neighbor's house. Lovely. I am ready to escape this place, his dreadful name and spotting him from a distance, darting out of a store to avoid possible interaction. I thought this high school avoidance was over. I suppose it cannot when he runs about with high school students still. I only want to feel free from my past, is this too much to ask? Quote of the Day: ~“The Earth has a skin and that skin has diseases, one of its diseases is called man.”~ -Friedrich Nietzsche

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