• I went to the shrink today, first time in so long and probably good that I did, seeing as home is pretty unbearable. He wants me to meet with another of his clients who’s a cutter; she’s this fourteen year old girl. He thinks that maybe I can help her that she will find it easier to relate to me. Mm, he also said that he thought I’m pre much cured of the whole cutting thing. So, yeah I’m a bit flattered. It’s true, I don’t feel the urges SO much anymore, I don’t really feel the need to cut, Monday was the last time I even held a blade, but then I didn’t want to use it, except for the urge to cut when I was on the way home and mum was so mad. Seeing him is like going to confession, it’s not too nice but afterwards everything is a lot easier. I am so tired though, I think an early bed, maybe not homework. We had a big chat about J and mum and stuff, he said that he thinks that he’ll talk to her. He wants us to have a family meeting but I aint doing that, it just wouldn’t work. honestly though, he’s so great, he’s such an optimist, pretty much all I have to do, according to him, is make the next six months good, good at school, good with friends and family, then school will be almost over and the future awaits. At the moment, I’m toying with the idea of doing nursing and specializing with psych patients, maybe then with adolescents/young adults. It would be a long time at school, but it seems like an area where I think I could help other people. Lately, I’m ridiculously tired. I think it’s because it’s so emotional tiring at home. I’m trying to sleep more, but it’s hard and still do work. I’m thinking this weekend, that instead of going to Jamie’s, going out for dinner then watching movies at Gee’s sounds SO much nicer, easier less tiring. Friday will be my work day; I’ll make good use of my triple free LULZ Tonight was nice, after school, we went back to Georgie’s with her and Hannah and had a massive girly gossip session. It’s so funny, they’re both obsessed with these guys, so naturally, and we’re making ridiculous plots for them to get them, which of course will work (: Life’s actually looking pretty good, I aced my psch assignment, only one in the class to get 100% got my first A in English and school sort of seems to be going well. And there’s a few really nice gaths that are happening soon, and it’s almost over. I’m going to go for my Ls on Tuesday, and just stay there till I get them. By the end of the year I WILL have my Ps. me, Lehmo and Jimmi are thinking bout moving in together, which would be amazing, I reckon. But what I’m looking forward to the absolute most is spending nights with jay, and lazy weekend mornings in bed with her.

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