• Today was a pretty cool day. I felt weird, though. There was this aftertaste in my mouth, the kind you feel after taking meds. I wore makeup today and my mom's new earrings. Arion still doesn't look at me in math. I was working on my mask during lunch. Then in PE it was walking and then activity of choice. I talked to Raul while we walked and then we got the ping pong -lol- table out and started playing but then Mario took over. "I wasn't concentrating".."Fuck, this wind!".."Wait, let me work my special serve".."It touched my finger! That's bullshit".. Reminded me of me a little. Then I had art and he looked at my homework, didn't like it, and then moved on to showing off our posters. Some kids got C's when it really looked like B work. But I know what she was doing. If it had too much orange.. bad. Too patriotic.. meh. Too much glutter.. eek. She really liked paintings, though. Paintings. These were posters, not paintings. I mean, they were pretty, but they missed the whole point. There was a really nice one of a bill and then it had a pyramid and then there was an eye through it. I liked that one. For the rest of the period, we played around with tissue paper. I made some poppies by cutting out circles and gluing them on top of each other so that the circles overlap and it looks great. I think overlapping is beautiful. Two things I want to say. 1. I killed a mosquito yesterday. I didn't kill it 'cause it was going to be fun. I killed it 'cause it could've hurt me or my parents or even Chamo and Perla. It was huge and yellow-lookin' with super long legs. When it was too late, I figured I wasn't supposed to be doing that. I looked up if insects feel pain. They don't. I felt a little better then, but I knew it still wasn't right. It's not about them feeling pain or not, it's about me taking something no one gave me the right to take. I took that mosquito's life because I could. But, really, that's so wrong. Just because I can reach out and kill it, doesn't make it okay to do so. I'm not sure, but I think they call that.. responsibility? "With more freedom comes more responsibility" 2. Laura and William are most likely going out. I hear he walks her to class. And, yes, I'm jealous. I don't want to date him again or anything, but it's not fair that it might work out between them and it didn't for us. It's not fair that she's my friend and she's dating my ex. Friends.. don't do that. And I always thought it was stupid when people said that and it is but it's a little true. Because she doesn't talk to me about them and because it feels like we're against each other or something. Maybe it's just me. But, out of all people in the school -and in the world-, why William?

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