• okay so i know i should be so considerate but im just so fed up with it. so my dads been depressed because he doesnt have and cant find a job and its been a little over a year now. regardless of this i still get so frustrated with that fact that he can get so mean. i dont understand why he has to be like this all the time. guiltily i sometimes hate being with him because i cant stand the way he acts. its awful to say but my mom has always been my favorite parent and this is just making me feel that even more. my dad can be so sarcastic and its where i get it from but it can actually hurt a lot when he makes comments about my eating habits and other such things. he just says things that get on my nerves so much a lot of the time. and he is so short tempered and its annoying. everything has been strained in our house for the last year due to him not having a job and us having money troubles. sending one child to college and the other in high school the expenses are really high and my mom only has a temp job right now so when thats over she wont have a job either. we're making on okay but its definitely not what it used to be and now everything my dad talks about is related to money or people who have money and its just getting to me and being so annoying. im just pretty much sick of everything in my life and i wish i didnt have to be home anymore. i wish there was somewhere to escape to but not that hes definitely gone theres no chance of that. so moving into that subject he told me he still likes me but needs more time so then the other night i told him that he should talk to me when hes figured it out but that im talking to other guys and i dont know where i will be at he was upset and went onto tell me i was cute truth is i know exactly where i will be when hes ready ill be willing to jump right into his arms but i really dont expect him to come back. sad thing is i told him id been fucked with and that i had trouble with trusting guys and then he goes on to just prove exactly that. i wish it hadnt happened i wish he had just stuck by me. and now ive somewhat met a new guy. this new guy is a senior can drive is nice funny in play reads listens to good music is nice but short and porky but i actually have conversations with him and we get along well but he doesnt make my blood boil like the old guy does. i actually made a list of pros and cons for each and theyre basically equal in both fuck. theres no clear winner for who i should really be with and that sucks. as well as another guy also is interested in me it seems but i dont know about him either. i definitely like the old one and the senior better. hard part is that the senior is a senior since he will be leaving and he is older only by 2 yrs but still its a little weird. im just so confused as to how to handle my life. all this shit happens at once and i miss the old guy but then at the same time im like wait no i dont i guess i miss his body more than anything since he was 6 ft and thick and had a lip ring all that was just better than the new guy whos nothing like that. but i dont think hes ever coming back no matter what happens its just over and he knows it but hes not telling me that i wish he would just make up his mind before im in too deep with this senior. because im falling for this senior a little bit its nice that i can actually talk to him and its not all about sex all the time like it was with the old guy. funny side story my sister was all its really weird you left fb posts about having sex and giving blowjobs on your friends wall...im pretty dumb considering i never thought about all that. anyways though theyre both decent guys and i wanna give both a chance but i guess thats considered wrong so i have to choose and i hate choosing i just want both for the different reasons the old guy to please me sexually and physically and the new guy to please me mentally and emotionally. i really dont know what i should do anyone have any suggestions ?

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