• I'm so insecure. I hate it. Lately it's more than just physically, it's everything. I feel like I'm not worth the time of others. It doesn't even make sense. I start to feel so sad and lonely, so self hating, and then you drop one of those lines that makes me turn my head and smile, all the hatred disappears, but it always seems to come back. I know it's not true, I know it. I just feel so scared. As though you're only lying to spare my feelings. When I think this way I feel so guilty and horrid. I sometimes wish you hadn't told me what you said to her, but I'm also glad you didn't hide it. On a positive note I've been emotionally exhausted lately, so I've been sleeping a little more. It seems I can sleep much better after the sun rises. Unfortunately this isn't exactly plausible for me since I wake before the sun. I was feeling rather optimistic this morning, but then I fell asleep for thirty minutes and had a horrible dream. In it I was so sad, watching someone I love further himself from me. I felt insecure in it, just as I am now. I wish things didn't affect me so easily. I wonder if other people are like this. Quote of the Day: ~“One of the advantages of being disorderly is that one is constantly making exciting discoveries.”~ --A.A. Milne

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