• It's almost christmas, and all my peers are running around the halls caroling and schelpping around their guitars and violins and cheerful voices. I've been feeling like a Scrooge, but is it my fault? The counselers think I have been needing to seek professional help since John left. I mean, yeah, I feel sad, but must it be immediatly diagnosed as depression? Do I have to be given another label due to my grief? I guess its just synomous with being under a microscope these days, but my english teacher, my mentor and idol asked me if I was on drugs! Are you fucking kidding me? I started basically just rambling in class and she wanted to know where I was coming up with this shit and I said it's in my head. She asked me if I did any type of drugs. There's enough going on there without the aid of il/legal substences. I don't like people poking around in my head. Truthfully, I'm moreso scared of them not being in my head but finding something in my head. It would give them another excuse to don me another label and be once again put on a shelf in the "special item" section of the toy store with all the other toys that seem broken or different. I'd just sit on that shelf anxiously awaiting someone to see past the cracks and the bandages and realise what's under this is genuine. And I found out Beth died. She overdosed. That made me feel like shit. They played Little Wing at her funeral, it fit her perfectly. Now if only Johnny could stop giving me shit about how I don't trust him and Taylor would stop pushing me to the breaking limit. I'm going to punch her in the face one of these days. These snow covered days remind me of the Robert Frost poem, "Christmas Trees." I wish I could describe how I am seeing things and how there's beauty in the world and how there's two more stars in the sky. Instead I'll just smile at you and say, "I'm wonderful. Happy Christmas. Too bad I couldn’t lay one in a letter. I can’t help wishing I could send you one, In wishing you herewith a Merry Christmas -Robert Frost, Christmas Trees

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