• I am so stressed out, and nobody understands that. I have this job and I work fairly often. I don't make that much money and with the money I have made, I have spent it. I had about 600 dollars saved, from just me. I get no help from family with saving money. Nothing. This year I needed all new clothes, mine are old and broken. I needed to buy work clothes, business clothes. I went through my 600 dollars paying for my entire school year on my own. I have 85 dollars left in my savings account. Tomorrow I have to hand in a 45 dollar check to my school and I have to pay for it. I have another 10 dollar check going into school and I have to pay for it. 55 dollars. 55 dollars I don't have. I live off of my weekly pay check, usually of about 50 dollars. My mom refuses to help me. I don't get help from anybody. All I do is give out money for things that have to be done, or to my brother, who always says he is going to pay me back, but never does. I try to help people when they need me, and I usually manage to do so. But when all I want is help to pay for school, help to pay for something so I don't just quit, I can't get it. On top of that, my mom thinks I broke my nanas computer, because it mysteriously stopped working. So she is talking about taking away my laptop and giving it to her. I haven't gotten my period and I can't start my pills til I get it, so I just keep stressing out. I cry more often every day. Alex is IMing me and trying to help but I can't listen to it. He says the same thing over and over again. He sits there telling me not to stress out when he is a major contributing factor. I just can't stand being like this anymore. I am stopping spending all money after Christmas. I am stopping going on visits. I am stopping talking to people who don't care about me. I am done putting up with all of this. I need everything to end. I am thinking about just killing myself. I hate my family for the most part, my friends when they are just assholes and people just around me. I know there are people out there who care about me, they just never show it. But anyways, its too late now, I am gone.

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