• Woah, i thought i wrote a journal entry on here since school started. Weird. Anyway, today was probably the most drama-filled day of school yet. In my first class, I had this werid feeling something bad was going to happen, and I was right. At lunch, we were all gossiping about this random girl and bgf was saying how much of a slut she was. Then bgf started to say some mean things about this other kid, who turned out to be this guy who now sits at our table's friend. (I'll call the new table guy Raul, cause its a cool name, lol.) Raul got really mad and said the reason he didn't like sitting by us was cause we gossip so much. Then BGF and Raul kinda started fighting, BGF saying gossiping was just who he is and that he's usually kidding, and Raul saying that most of the things we say aren't true, that most of the people we talk about are really nice if you get to know them, and that he has been on the recieving end of gossip and it has even made him...suicidal. BGF thinks Raul is just saying this for attention, and doesn't care at all about Raul's feelings! He says he's not going to change himself for one person. Then after lunch, BGF did the one thing i was hoping he wouldn't but knew he would- GOSSIP about the whole situation! Me and Bayla were getting annoyed and said "At least Raul was brave enough to tell his opinion!" I said to BGF, "Maybe you should be more open minded!" And THAT threw him over the edge! He gave me the most deadly stare i have ever seen. We haven't talked since. Kylie is siding with BGF and giving me the cold shoulder too. I'm really worried about Raul. Hearing him say gossip made him want to kill himself made me feel like crying! I'm still depressed about it! I don't know if he REALLY wants to do that, but i don't know what to do! He thinks that as soon as he leaves, we start talking about him, since he's heard all the things we say to other people. We don't, but i don't blame him for thinking that! I really want to try and gossip less, especially about people who I am nice to their face, and when Raul is around. But unless BGF gets a serious attitude adjustment that isn't going to happen! Honestly, I think even though it is bad, in a few weeks I will be back to my gossiping self. I know it is wrong, but that is probably what will end up happening. Our group has been like this since we were 12, and Raul has only been sitting with us for like half a year. BGF will probably end up talking to me by the end of the day tomorrow, and want to kick Raul and the freshmen out of our table and bring in the henchmen. He has wanted them to sit by us for a while, but there hasn't been room. They are like 10x meaner than him and will just add more fuel to his fire. I really want to stay friends with BGF, but I don't want anything to happen to Raul!!

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