• Sigh. How sweet. I was thinking of my current insecurities. I've realized that they've been lowered SIGNIFICANTLY. I'm doing much better at keeping things simple, not taking things personally, bouncing back and keeping a positive attitude. Gotta fix up my writing for the big shoot. Supposed to be observing another shoot these coming weeks, but I'm scared. Those current insecurities of mine. Damn you... I've got nine months left to feel like that "new woman" who I wasn't in June of 2006. Drove to Del Taco tonight for some much needed lovin' as I was thinking about this. I am so fortunate and blessed. And another realization I just had, is that maybe just maybe... rather than being afraid of reaching 110% happiness in fear that it'll be ruined, I'm just really anxious about doing what needs to be done to have it all going for me like that at once. Like my lagging need to fix my damn apartment and car up. And pay the rest of my debt off. Raise my credit score again. Do my face, ear and mouth surgeries. And be content with all of my relationships. I've come a long way, and my inner gratitude and enthusiasm proves it to me. It also makes me realize the potential I now feel in doing things I never thought of actually doing before... asking out the guy... loving the crowd... not screwing it up, not caring. The manager gave me a new work proposal with actual figures of income. And hopefully no taxation? We'll talk more later. Oh yeah, and I'm good. Soon I'll be GOOD. I love You, Lord!

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