im falling back into bad habits. i dont like it. the anxiety adn panic attacks started again. im so stressed out right now, and to be honest, i have no idea why. i was driving today and i was making silly little mistakes that ive never made adn i just cudnt focus ur screwing up all my plans. my life. my childhood. and i dont appriciate it. not one bit. ur making this place hell. and its makign me think things from my past. that i dont want to think again. i've moved on. or so i thot. but tonight made me think differently. first the panic attacks. i knwo what comes next. its a never ending vicious circle. i wish u were dead. i hate u so much. even my fucking boss can tell. he knwos when im at ur house or his. he can tell by the way i act and stand and talk. he see's a difference. but u will never see it. ur too stupid to ever notice. _so here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me, I'm not worth any tears..._