• people screaming, jumping, sweating, pulsing the crowd all round, no room to move, no room to breathe my lungs were all filled with cigaretttes, my head was spinning and falling towards the floor i thought about what it would be like to drop in that crowd, if people would stop to care, or if they'd just keep on dancing right over your face i love that feeling of mixing sweat, of catching lyrics in my ear i wish i held onto more inside my head, just swaying feels lonely when everyone else knows all the words i want to be a super fan, screaming fuck me charlie scene, you guys are fucking awesome but that would be pretentious so i just blended instead I went with all the druggies and i fit right in i smoked like 7 cigarettes, one right after the other i kept thinking how matt would kill me if he knew, but there's no way that he will that night, i was harper threshold, tearing down the city everything at home seemed like a fucking joke i hate how reality always has to set back in I've officially decided that matt can go back to virginia without me on his mind i don't want that tie, that far off connection, pulling me out of the fucked up cuz i could use a little break love doesn't mean shit from that many miles, especially because sex is a huge part of our teenage definition everytime i see him, the way that he pushes, how badly he wants it makes me hate him just a little more it's how i've come this far, breaking down my dillusions i know now that he is replaceable,just like me i'm so sick of forgettin i am only a toy the concept that being used atleast means i'm useful is really starting to loose it's meaning

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