• Seriously, i do! I look like i'm 12 in my Facebook profile picture. I'm thinking about getting bangs and new thick framed glasses. Maybe that will make me look older. Or at least indie-er. The glasses might just end up looking dorky on me though. I haven't posted anything on here in a while cause i've been hanging out with my friends who come up here for vacation. They're the old music, converse & mocasin, and peace-loving type, and really they were fun people. But about halfway through the week, i learned they smoke weed. At first I was shocked- i mean they are perfect students and run a sunday school! But I got used to it. Sarah, the older one told me I should try it some time. Maybe when i'm like 18 and at a big graduation party in the middle of nowhere with some of my good friends. But Sarah and her sister have been doing it since they were 13, and that just doesn't seem right to me. They said you don't get any side effects like a hangover, and that it really does look the way it seems in That 70's show. I'm not gonna lie, it sounds kinda fun. But i won't be doing it for at least 3 years, if ever. I've come to realize i'm easily influenced by people. Even though i'm not on their weed-wagon, after hanging out with Sarah and Molly, i downloaded a bunch of their favorite songs onto my ipod and am saving up for a pair of custom converses. I think i act a little different with each of my friends, too. One time Bella was telling me how one of our other friends is like that, and it's only because she doesn't know who she is. Does that mean I don't know who I am?? Even thought my summer has been relatively boring, it feels like it's almost over. In a week and a day, it WILL be half over! I don't really know what I want to do with the rest of the summer. I hope i can corrall some people into going to the fair with me and that i can go on a G.B.E. with Bella. I wish I could make some money too. But i don't think my mom appreciates me cleaning houses with her, since I'm horrible at making beds. You know how summer used to be really fun when you were a little kid? But it still felt ridiculously long at the same time?? Well it's not like that anymore and feels like one gigantically long and boring weekend. Maybe next summer, the first summer i'll be able to drive (yippie!) will be better. Cause then I could get out of this middle-of-nowhere land i call a craphole and actually go places! And get a real job! And go to CONCERTS!! There's a Pluginstereo concert comming up real close by here, and I wish I could go, but my mom would probably hate it and I don't feel like asking somebody else's mom to take me. You know those yearbooks i was harping about a while ago, well they still haven't come. Grrr... i'm angry =

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