• You made me feel whole. You made me feel special. You made me feel beautiful. You made me love you. I fell in love and all i can do now is cry. I read books now only to suppress my thoughts...but of course there is something in there that reminds me of you and then everything floods in the good times...and then the end and then i have just sit there and scream at myself to stop... i still dream about you.you have no idea how much it sucks to wake up with hope and then realize it was all just a dream. one great dream you know wont come true. gosh. i had a fucking dream that you came back to me and that you wanted to get back together with me. it scared the shit outta me because i wasn't sure i wanted you back. and why should i. you broke my heart. its at the side of the road rotting, u threw it there after you crushed it into millions of pieces. I trusted you with my heart. you promised you wouldn't break it! you promised! and look what you did! you broke it and abandoned me! GOD! I never thought like i would ever feel abandoned again after my father left but look what happens! Why didn't I listen to him? "Guard your heart." "Protect your heart." "Be Careful." "Don't do anything stupid." and I didnt listen to him. I was being stupid for ever trusting you! I should have listened to him. I should have protected myself but you made it seem like we could make it through anything...it was going to be tough but we were strong enough to do it. You said we could make it through anything...you also said you could never see yourself breaking up with me and look what happens. you break up with me! you broke up with me!!! What sucked the most was having everyone ask about you a couple days later and i had to give the same answer over and over again. We broke up a couple days ago.and then they would try to comfort me. "There are many fish in the sea" "He'll come back to you begging on his hands and knees" "He just needs time to think..there's a lot going on in his life" or my favorite "with looks like yours you will never have to worry" yea. every single time someone tried to comfort me my eyes watered...if they continued then i would start to cry. You really have no idea how hard it is for me. every night i expect you to call me at nine still. its weird having my ring the other way. I'm bored on a Saturday. I never thought I would say that... I check my phone outta habit only to find a blank screen telling me that you haven't texted me. yeah. I lost my apatite. I can sleep until my body forces me. My mind brings you up all the time! and everything triggers a memory a painful memory! It cuts me up on the inside! god! i cant stand it! i cant take it! everywhere i go there's a reminder. I just want to get outta here! I want to leave this town and its memories so i don't have to deal with them being triggered...so i don't have to feel my heart break all over again... they say the first cut is the deepest but it wasn't a cut, it wasn't just a cut it was my whole heart... God! I swear! i think your over me...i think you have been over me. I now sometimes think you were just playing a game to see just how hard i can fall. I sometimes think you never loved me at all and you just filled my head with your bullshit...yet i still care about ! Am I just stupid?!?I think i am...I'm a stupid girl for believing in Fairy tales and love and prince charmings and all that other bullshit! I'm a stupid stupid girl who thinks her life is ending because your gone... I don't think ill ever get over you...ever...i guess ill just have to get used to you slipping through my fingers...

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