• I...actually have nothing to complain about. I just thought since I haven't had an entry in a while, I'd do it for shits and giggles. We've patched the little leak we had that I admittedly caused. It was just stupid insecurities that I had and only had to hear her say everything was going to be okay to truly believe it. We had our best talks in weeks yesterday night and it was really, really nice. Laughing with her, even if it is just over a phone, are times I truly cherish and wish I could hold on to forever. But I can't. Eventually we have to hang up. I had work in 4 hours after all. So with the little sleep I had, I managed to dream about her. Something I haven't done in so long. I don't remember what exactly happened, but I just remember seeing her face, her hand in mine and feeling giddy...yes, the mighty mouse of hockey (being on the small side while still being able to be a tenacious checker), felt giddy. It happens. I don't care about admitting that to any of you cause I don't know you. Judge as you please, only few people in this world can make me care about their opinions. Anyways, it was a good night over all that influenced my attitude at work. Compared to not only two days ago when no one could say anything without me snapping at them, I had a jump in my step and the guys noticed. I hate being an asshole. I don't like alienating myself from people, especially my friends and those who I work with. It was nice to interact with them properly again, even if it was back to "let's harass the young one." I'm used to it. Having finished school earlier than most people my age, I've been the youngest in almost everything I participate in. Sports, work, you name it. Being harassed comes with being the youngest one. It's all about earning your stripes. We had two flight tests today, both pretty uneventful cause...well, we fixed the problems. I like flying, and the satisfaction and confidence I get after finishing a job makes those test flights that much more enjoyable. So ya, things have gotten back on track. It's a good feeling. I'll try to not let my head get in the way of things again. ____________________________________________________________________ I mourn for those who never knew you "Rose of Sharyn" - Killswitch Engage

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