• I never know how to start these right without sounding like a cliche I end up deleting all my beginnings because "This weekend was.." or "Today I..." just don't seem strong enough an intro when I feel i have something important to say It's funny how that happens because once I get going,the words come easily sometimes i don't even feel like I'm thinking as my fingers fly, thoughts just spill across the screen and then i ramble, like now, and forget why i'm even on here since I have so many other things i should probably be doing Chris drove down to my beach house to visit and i thought about how long it's been since last summer It kind of weirds me out that we've been close like this, off an on for almost a year I always used to think "I wonder if this will be our last time..." everytime we had sex, but now I feel more secure We've been sort of "back together" for like a month now and he still hasn't tried to put back the distance In some sick strange part of my head, I can picture him in my life for the next year too, but at the same time I'm scared to make any promises I know it's so fucked up that I want him to be my something to hold onto when i'm watching him falter, but i just keep on projecting When our skin is touching, i feel so safe, the way i did with matt, except it doesn;t feel as dangerous I trust chris because he lets his guard down and gives me enough room to twist his words and hurt him He trusts me because i sing in the rain and tell him when i'm scared he'll let me down I want so badly for this to have a happy ending, but i don't know yet what that would entail I don;t need a real relationship, i'm over the cliche I've given up on him quitting drugs just because he knows it will make me happy I think all i really need is an experience i won;'t forget, a few moments to play over in my head and smile about before i go to sleep If we can extend whatever it is we do for as long as possible, then i know i'll be laughing thank you for the music serenity

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