• "Sissy, I promise, everything's going to be okay.." "It will just take some time.." God, I hope so. I hope so much that you'll do what you say this time. But your hugs sometimes feel like choking, and you're only sweet when you've seen me kicked down. I hope things will go up instead of just faking and then spiraling down. I hope this time passes by more quickly than one can fathom, but I know it won't, not without windows. At least I'm leaving soon. I have a cocktail of emotions clambering about in my head and I don't know which one to follow. It's as though they're all climbing on a play ground, and I follow one for so long..and then it falls off and I'm stuck empty. I'm angry and hurt, upset that things don't have a solution, made powerless by my parents inaction, and scared for what the future holds. I just want to run as fast as my messed up little legs will carry me and somehow end up on a beach looking over the ocean. I just want to get away. Man, I can't wait to get out of here. I often feel it will be so sad, but I have to get away..far away. I think I want to live on campus for college..force myself into social situations and just try to experience something new. No matter how rough life gets in adulthood, at least I will have myself to blame, at least it will be on my shoulders, at least I won't be this powerless creature tormented by what's just out of reach. I hope everyone had a good Mother's Day. Quote of the Day: ~“The pessimist complains about the wind; the optimist expects it to change; the realist adjusts the sails.”~ -- William Arthur Ward

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