• Kai, its currently about 4/5am. The only reason I'm up now is because for about the past month I haven't been able to sleep at night. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I can't seem to get more than two hours of sleep! It might be another reason that I've been stressed lately. I seriously don't know why I can't sleep! The whole not sleeping thing doesn't affect me during the day as much as you'd think it would. I'm usually not tired during the day, so I'm still a straight A student. But I would never let myself not be a straight A student, I'm to much of a perfectionist. Anyway not sleeping might be some weird symptom I have. For the past 2 months or so I've been going to the doctor a ton to try and figure out what's wrong with me. Symptoms. 1. I normally sleep less than two hours at night. Surprisingly enough I don't have bags under my eyes... I'm seriously considering that I might be nocturnal, if that's possible. I don't ever sleep during the day though... 2.I'm always cold. It's not me that feels cold, like I might be sweating and complaining about how hot it is, but if someone touches me they'll freak out and complain about how cold I am. 3.I'm pale white. I've always been a white kid, but I was never as white as I am now, before I could at least tan a bit, but that seems impossible now. But lately I've just been getting whiter and whiter, and now I'm like pale white! 4.Lately I've been getting nauseous really easily, which is not good for someone who used to be bulimic... 5.I get a lot of pains. Like stomach pains etc. Eating always tends to hurt, which makes me not like eating. 6. Umm. I can't really think of all the crap symptoms right now, I've got a list somewhere but if I go looking for it my mother might get angry... If you've got any idea to whatever my issue is go ahead and try and tell me, I'd love to know! I've been going to the doctor a ton & I just got a shit load of blood work done last Thursday, so hopefully I find out what's wrong with me! ... and just a little note to anyone who may reply to this, please, PLEASE, do not say I'm a twilight vampire. My friends sometimes say that and it really pisses me off. I don't sparkle in the sunlight, so don't ask if I do (like my friends do...) Seriously it pisses me off! Some of the twilight obsessed people I know say they're jealous of me, but don't be because this is all stressful as hell for me! Anyway I should probably stop writing, I'll update you all on another day!

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