• we're kinda in a meeting or whatever. ummm, yeah. haven't seen H yet, finding out his cell now xD this doesn't really look like it's gonna go well. refreshments? it's all healthy junk i'll throw back up later if i even think about eating it, i don't get along with fruit. and, i taste weed. oh dear lord it's been a few days... god, someone better bring me some... anyway. i wanted to skip fourth to hang out with him but i can't. because i'll get ten days suspension, and that won't be fun. and oh my god, i am so hungry. i might get to leave early, and go see him during D lunch. i wish time would go by faster! three or four people have asked me if we're together... i just smile. again. and i actually like this. i know he's bad news, but like i said... it draws me in. it makes me want him. all. over. me. and i feel weird about it, because i'm not normally like this when it comes to relationships, i have to say i'm more of an emotionally attached person and i pick the wrong people. well, brock and i broke up because he's a dbag, and probably actually was emotionally abusing me/cheating on me, david and i broke up because he was going through emotional crap at home with running away. chris q and i broke up because he was in love with a guy. chris b and i broke up after 2 days because he wanted sex, and i wouldn't do it, pretty decent, right? and he ended up dumping me because i told him his "best friend" said he was using me. so, he had a guilty conscience. tyler and i broke up because...well...after the third time, the emo kid thing gets really...um, old. and i don't like it when people are constantly in a bad mood. i went through that too, i mean, i used to cut, and i had a fucking ED, but still. that whole "*/sigh, my life SUCKSSSSS" thing is so old. seriously. nikki and i actually broke up last night. i was going to break up with her but she beat me to it, just like chris q did. and i was actually okay with it but she was like "well you need to figure out your sexual orientation because you're not satisfying me and i hope you just find someone else", and really...i didn't care. i don't believe in sexual orientation, whatever. i was pretty happy. now i can screw around with H, no strings :) i wonder, how long will this one last? hmm. dorothy just kinda put that idea in my head. he's been hitting on me for a while now, even before he knew who i was, but he hits on everybody, but in some sick, sick, SICK way I LIKE that. i like them low-down and dirty, i like them fucked up, fucked over, turned out...and just over all headcases! ughhh.

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