• this week so far isnt so bad, it has had its ups n downs..the better half of it is gone since its now thursday (well 1am thursday morning so technically thursday hasnt happened yet). monday i think i skipped morning gym to study for the infs lab assessment later that day, did a fair bit of reading if i remember correctly..altho maths hw was delayed, only got to do a few qs.. got to uni on time (thank goodness) maths tute was meh, ended up talking with some luke guy who has already finished a course and is taking a second one, he seems to know what his doin with his uni, attending the careers expo and all in a suit handing out resumes, haha i shldve done that, i probly will be when im at his stage of his career.. lol career..cant even imagine having one let alone rising in one. ah well thats something for future alvien to think about. next was the infs lab assessment.. everyone was already there when arrived, jess n sherman were at the back, so got a seat and went thru it.. it was alot easier than expected, meaning i could actually do the questions..altho it took some memory jogging and lookin thru elearning notes i managed to finish most of it.. no one could do the last part, and half of the second last part..i was happy with what i got done, altho i feel sorry for jess, she submitted with 16 errors >< i hope the tutor doesnt mark harshly for that.. she has improved heaps.. ah well i think i didnt make things better poking fun at it.. but given my situation and distance im trying to keep for my own good i sort of had to.. she seemd to take it lightly but i dont know what she thinks of me now, probly still some immature kid whose always making fun of her, sigh why do i do these things? we met our 4th member for the grp project, amanda, from a prev comp subject last yr, tho i dont think she remembers me..she seems to know her stuff so hopefully this grp project will do well. jess was abt to stay back to study for mgmt, so i stayed back, but long story short, we all went to the lecture..which we half paid attention half mucked around half paper msned (u know write messages on paper and pass it between each other..yeah). sat next to sam, whose now doing his industrial training part of BIT. the lect finished a bit early and the micro lect was like next door so we just bummed arnd a bit, then she went off with melissa so we went to get seats, shermy went to get the paper, returning later for 5c lol..lect was ok, least boring subject. then bus home.. later that night she called, but was just asking to print lect notes for tmr, talked for a bit, cant remember abt what..haha yeah i know its nothing..found out there was an sms to go with it when i checkd my mobile. tuesday morning went gym then read on the train micro stuff., got to the tute early for once..so course there was that awkward part before the tute where all the students hang arnd outside the class, but no one speaks.. i thought it was funny to watch..micro tute was ok this week, actually understood what was happening and even answered a question, yeah micro is pretty interesting. then 1 hr break, where i normally meet up with her, but instead went squash..sweat alot as usual, luckily i brought a small towel this time to dry off..getting better at squash, i think the score was like 15-12, shermans way.. but still better than like 15-7.. maybe next time itll be 15-14. ended up playing two rounds, which meant i left there right before 3, and the 3 hr lect was like 10 mins up campus.. so came in late and sweating.. just great.. when i went in she was in our usual spot but there was some dude now next to her.. from the moment i saw him i knew his intentions, he looked like one of those dodgy guys too with only one thing on his mind.. but i couldnt really say anything.. thruout the lecture he pretended to need help etc just trying to chat up jess, funny thing is i was the one who had to give my stuff to him..sus sneaky guy, i mean cmon, first he asks to see last weeks lecture, then the course outline.. saw right thru him, but i dont think she did..but it didnt matter coz we talked the whole time, and did alot more paper msn, and random drawings n scribbles. its some where on the back of my lecture notes, we filled it up pretty much.. arnd 4 ish she said something that made me laugh a bit inside, she asked all girly "if i tell you something girly will you mind/laugh?" so im like "er haha what is it, i wont laugh *laughs a bit*" "ive gotta go at 430" "oh..why where u goin" "i have to go do a girl problem" "ooooh, ok" something along those lines.. the way she said it was cute, i could see the sus guy on the other side of her, making side glances every now n then, didnt really like him one bit..esp when she went off to do her "girl" problem, the sus guy goes thru all her stuff and notes etc.. im like thinking, wtf dude what are you doing.. seriously wth.. u dont just go thru peoples stuff.. i didnt wanna say anything.. but i just gave him a look, he sorta backed off after that.. probly trying to find what we were writing abt and get some leverage.. desperate guy. anyways for break, just had lunch and walked down the hallway..again i bumped into jason.. seems like we will be bumping into each other every week at this time. weird coincidence really.. oh n dean and jess were strolling around.. she called but i was talking to jason then ran off to class.. caught up with dean and just talked quick chit chat abt cod4..came back in and more lecture discussions.. then the presentations.. she stayed for 1, which was this cute asian chick, so i didnt mind paying attention, theirs was so pro.. glad i did mine already.. after that she left, felt a bit ditched, but the thing that really got me was the sus guy, who left as she left, like literally seconds after.. and he goes all try hardish to his friends "im gonna go toilet..yeahh" and hi fives one of em..i swear if he tries anything on her or does something.. his gonna get it. but thankfully she was with dean, i think.. out of common courtesy i stayed back for the rest of the presentations, which were all really good..even learnt a few things.. tho didnt particpate, couldnt find anything to say abt it really.. will have to next week to get some class marks. bus then train home, i cant remember anything significant happening on the way home. did some micro reading, so many pages to do. then wednesday, or today.. gym in the morning, had to cut it real short, like 50 mins max, and trained it from revesby..got to uni with alot of time to kill, oh and when i woke up there was a msg from jess. something abt come while she had break, but i had class, so just had to reply with that.. maths lect was er ok, called her up before it started, coz was so bored..and i knew it was gonne get even more boring.. altho the asian chick next to me, kept side glancing, i dont know if it was for good or bad lol..after met jess n dean outside, their lect was right after mine and in 8 i was in 7..we just confirmed to meet later in quad lab 6 and some small talk. went to get a pearl taro milk tea.. soo good and only 3 bucks.. that was sorta my snack i spose.. went quad labs and did some micro.. then sherman msns me thru vista.. he was in asb108 so i went there eventually after some more micro.. johnson was also there, a usyd pharm student, who was preparing for the pharm revue, while also watching the latest himym, his ok, gave him my mp3 coz he wanted some music.. sherman went to get some pearl tea when he saw mine.. so just read more micro.. when he got bak we did the self tests, which was actually good studying, tho half mucking around and half letting johnson (the pharmacy student) answer some of our microeconomics questions, long story short we got 9/15 for the one we let johnson do some but 13/15 for the one we did seriously, so it was ok. michelle came later, they were gonna go careers expo but i think ended up not goin.. forgot to text jess to tell her im not at quad lab anymore..lol oops. so she rang me, but call disconnected straight after so called her up.. sherman said a few words which i translated sorta something along the lines of "johnson wants to intertap you jess" i know stupid right.. anyways she was like what? she came later and we all packed up n left. went to marsh room to watch the bboy class again, talked abt a few things, namely her thoughts on dean and other stuff.. so what i thought was sorta true.. i already knew dean was falling for her.. but whether she was, she didnt really know.. she said "i dont wanna hurt him" from then it became a bit more clear how things were between them two..more of a onesided relationship than anything if u could call it that i guess, but yeah i see where she is coming from, i just hope no one gets hurt.. well cept me.. but u cant help that.. she doesnt even know, and she probly never will.. im just her good friend, her protective friend, gave her a bit of my thoughts on the sus guy.. she sorta had a feelin abt it too i think or atleast now hse does.. altho that sort of turned into us somehow laughing abt protecting her from someone else.. i dunno.. we tend to go off topic alot and just laugh.. =) she changed into track suit pants to "practice" altho we didnt join class we sort of made our own "dodgy random in the corner" practice session.. lol watched a bit more of the class and just talk.. she kept goin on abt the hot guys walking arnd, the real breakers..i just did the eye rolling thing. we felt bad for watching and not paying so i told her to just act interested and talk to the guy, coz it wont be so bad coming from her, we all know guys are much nicer when theres a cute girl talking to them.. in this case it was also true.. so we got out, she went to change, and she wanted to stalk on her jason friend.. altho that didnt really happen.. more of a look from a distance, and the guy sort of just looked for a half a second and left, she didnt really like that.. then we went to meet up with dean to go home.. we just talked cod most of the way while jess was rushing arnd looking for a bus.. dean met up with some friends, apparently jess knows them but is not too keen on talking, she said something but i missed it, so might be something that happened before, the chicks name was gloria.. well we bussed it to townhall, was packed, so we were sorta split.. i just stood by the bag holding area.. the asian chick next to me was a bit friendly, in the sense hands touched more than normal and she didnt really shy away from it, infact it felt more like she was trying to do it.. i didnt really mind, she was cute, but i just kept too my spot and stared off into the distance.. kept picking up vibes from her tho, later even got a smile and thankyou when i gave up my seat.. shes probly always a bit too friendly.. we missed our usual stop so got off like a block or two later.. the walk to the station we just continued our cod talk..while jess lead the way at the front. said our goodbyes and i went off to train it.. was pretty hungry when i got to lidcombe so i decided to get a porkroll.. best idea ever.. was soo good. havent had one in ages and all i had to eat today was cereal, sandwich and a pearl tea..so the porkroll tasted like heaven in my mouth... *drools* it was gettin dark when i got home, and was starting to thunder and lightning, so went out for a walk after dinner, while it was still only drizzling very lightly, but the lightning was going nuts in the distance and got closer and closer, only walked up n down the street today incase it started pouring.. but still had a good 30 or so min walk.. and the lightning was just beautiful, so bright and so quick..it stopped ages ago, didnt last that long.. sis was on comp so i just read some micro.. got a few pages out of the way before gettiu sleepy and gave in to a quick rest..played some cod with dean, and did some youtube.. chris also msned abt gold class tickets he was gonna give to mj, apparently her bday today, 25th of march, well yesterday (2 hrs ago), 1:59 am now, also jacky then asks for legal studies help, haha i dont do it but tried to give some ideas which somehow helped.. john might tennis this semester once he gets all his work done..sherman talked abt the project abit. ah the project, gotta get started on that and set dates for us to work, bah hope i dont have to lead this one again, or co lead.. better to get it done early and out of the way, this sem is still just getting started. my feelings atm for her? i dont really know, this thing im trying to do to not get hurt is sort of doing the opposite, at times the feelings are strong, and its all i can think abt, other times i wonder why im thinking like this now.. i guess she leads me on sometimes, like with all the other guy friends she has, they have seemd to learn so why cant i? well except dean.. i think his misread her or have i? more on that when something happens..its late and i wanna just bed it.. so confused, what am i gonna do? i guess the only thing i can do, enjoy it =D songofthemoment puddle of mudd - blurry

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