• continuing from last thursday 19th march, maths tute was full on, teacher didnt stop to breathe, mp3 was back up n running, micro lect after was same, ended a bit earlier actually..so i stayed back in the quad labs to study a bit..sherman stayed back a bit too, while he waits for michelle. so i got some study done while waiting for the clock to reach 6 ish.. then left for revesby to have dinner with family. got there just on time, dinner was nice, and bumped into a fellow filo who worked there, always seen him arnd after gym but never crossd my mind he was filo, goes to show cant really judge just by appearances. played some pool later to pass the time, then hometime. next day was friday, when i normally dont have uni, but coz i changed maths lect for someone so i could join em in breakdancing i now had 9-11 friday classes, which is soo early (for me atleast, i like late uni) so ofcourse i was running late for class..decided id already missed the first half, so i went to get the paper and set my stuff down in quad lab 6 and maybe relax for a bit.. then at 10 to 10 went to the second half of maths, lecturers are so much better than the stream i was prev in, so i guess the change wasnt all too bad, even if it means i have a 5 day week now.. i cant remember if she was already there when i came back or she arrived after i arrived, anyways she came in and we just smiled, its all i can really do for now, she didnt end up wearing the heels she said she would, but that didnt matter. we just bludged a bit i think, trying to study a bit. i dont know why i said the things i said next, i guess i was thinking it would help things, but i think it just jumbled things even more; anyways, what i said was that i was interested in some girl in my maths tute (which i sort of was, but nowhere as near as her) and that things were getting interesting over the past week with eyes glancing around the place (that was actually true, lately ive noticed classmates of the opposite sex showin a bit more interest than normal, whether thats good or bad, i dont know yet) this sparked her interest and a bit of excitement, i dont know if that was the reaction i was looking for, but she seemd to want to know more, but not in the way that i woudlve wanted =/ so i had to maintain a sense of interest in the girl i was "supposedly" considering in my maths tute, she was giving me some tips, the usual "just say hi" and "it has to be comfortable first before anything else" how ironic, its funny coz thats what i was doing with her, but i think were getting too comfortable with each other for anything to happen without someone getting hurt or awkward, so now i just have to live with the fact she thinks im interested in someone else, which infact i said to do the opposite..i cant tell if she was just pretending to be interested and really wasnt liking my news, but thats probably my minds wishful thinking again =/ so yeah throughout the day it was a bit of that and studying for nextweeks assessment.. sherman came in after them, and got straight into work..went to his computer later to get some decent studying done, then she followed and we all sussed out a few exercises.. then sherman was gettin a bit hungry so went with him to look for some food, although i already had mine. jess wanted us to get her $6.50 lasagne somewhere up in mathews.. we checked out the asian restaurant near clb, and found out they sold Pearl Taro Milk Tea!! also for only 3 bucks, mmmm so we both got one, was soo goood. better than food. then got her food, i paid for it, and went back. oh and during the study session, bumped into king, he was looking up exchange info for america, clarence and another friend also came later, and melissa, jess's friend.. she was neopetting and the guys behind got bored so was asking her what games to play haha, that was random, at this time sherman was showing me youtube videos, some drumming ones, while i showed him some hip hop ones, he didnt seem to like it as much as i thought :( but o well diff tastes.. after some more studying we decided to go check marsh room to "practice" or atleast try to haha, so we could maybe try a few things in the audience of no one.. altho i dont know why i asked sherman to come >< it seemd to annoy jess, so that was poor judgement on my behalf..on the way sherman kept poking fun at us, just mocking us i spose, whether he was trying to sus anything out of me or jess i dont know..as usual i had to act as if it was stupid, i think jess feels a bit awkward when he does that i cant say i dont, i mean we both cant really say anything at the risk of hurting each other or clarifying something we both maybe dont want to know the answer to. but i dunno i cant read minds.. anyways the breakdancin didnt get anywhere, coz we bumped into one of shermans friends, and that just made our walk more awkward coz we didnt really want anyone to watch us in the first place plus she said she had to go soon, so we decided to go back, which sort of made the other guy feel awkward i spose, in short nothing happened and we just walked up n down past law and back to quad. sherman invited me to squash with his friends later, so packed up for the day, they were also all leaving so we both went out separate ways.. we both went to the tennis courts trying to find a way in, we looked like noobs, took us awhile to realise it was from the back, but then there was like 10+ people so we couldnt tennis, instead we went with a few guys to squash.. there was adley, chubby guy, alex, the pro guy that remembers me from somewhere and i think i too but cant, william the timid guy who was eating his food on the way..so abt 5 of us.. squash was near the uni gym, behind roundhouse.. so was new territory for me. we got past the unigym and up to the squash courts when on the stairs, who did we see but jess and the rest..that was unexpected..she remembered that we were meant to get posters today, i cant believe that totally slipped my mind, better yet i cant believe she went looking for me, and made it as far as these squash courts..it sort of gave me hope, but i knew i was half kidding myself, i mean cmon..gotta be realistic here.. so i was tied between goin to squash or going with her and dean, mel to get posters, obv i wanted to go but i felt for ditching sherman, even for a second, since he was bringing me here and i just met his friends.. so i made a snap decision to quickly go and get the posters with her.. so back at roundhouse, we went to get posters, i got my muhammad ali (that now sits at the edge of my bed, looking awesome) and my sister a twilight one of bella and edward? she got a twilight crew one..she got me another one coz apparently she accidentally creased it, how thoughtful..but no, dont kid yourself anymore its just common courtesy, i guess. so it cost abt 18 bucks for my two and 9 for hers, got it packaged and then we went our separate ways again halfway between unigym and roundhouse, where the art ppl were drawing..had to rush back to the squash ppl.. got changd into some more appropriate clothes, shorts and shirt, as i knew i was going to sweat and run alot, something that wouldnt work in jeans and a hoodie.. we played in a couple of courts, having to move when someone with a real booking came haha, but it was free so cant complain and we always managed to find a replacement court.. clicked well with everyone there, something i usually dont do when meeting new people which was new..i guess the phrase 'just be yourself' but dont over do it, can really work.. so i learnt how to play squash, but still sucked bad at it, and felt so noobie coz everyone was teaching me how to play lol, altho i got a few woah's here n there probly coz i managed to actually hit the ball..after abt 2 hrs, we left, i changed back coz i was drenched in sweat, and later i would find that my right forearm is dead and sore.. bused it with sherman to central, he was meeting michelle later (oh yeh she stopped by before in the lab before goin to work) john rang me on the bus and i justm issed him apparently, he was onthe bus behind me, so i waited at central and just talked with sherman, he was a bit upset, esp with someone. we just talked abt how he doenst tell everything to anyone, that he has to get to know em alot first and comfortable enough to trust them, im privileged to be there i guess, altho when he talks abt jess i cant really say anything and just listen, i didnt know things were gettin on his nerves this bad (and also after tonight). well i think we talked too long coz i missed my friend, i think a few buses went past us while we were busy talking, but its k coz i was going home, didnt need to gym since squash was sorta my gym for the day.. went home and was just getting vibes from the chick next to me on the train, talked randomly for a bit with a stranger abt his shirt before gettin of lidcombe, he had an australian shirt which said "War on Error ism" i thought it was funny and said something abt it; again this renewed confidence ive been getting from her has been coming through alot lately, first with new people then now this, i never would have before. got home and ill admit i was bored and was dancing a bit infront of the mirror, well not really dancing, more like lipsyncing to gabe bondoc songs and doing actions haha, im so lame i know, but no one was home upstairs and i didnt wanna rest yet..so yeah..that was my friday.. saturday and sunday isnt really worth writing abt, just trained it to gym but didnt look it up and there was track work, so trip was super long and ended up busing it to revesby from sydenham.. birthday dinner later that night.. sunday was pretty much the same, woke up and while cod4'ing got a call from her, also an sms an hr before, cant believe out of all the days i dont check my mobile when i wake up thats the day she sms's me..anyways it was just abt java work, but the fact that she wanted to call me later sometime amused me, i know.. lame yeh? but anything is better than nothing..anyways she called while i was gaming, haha. just abt java but i hadnt really studied much for it yet, just theory, coz java compile didnt work at home for me, so i couldnt really help her, im so dumb, i shdlve stopped there and offered to help her then.. well she said she would call later, but i guess she didnt need to coz she never did..i feel a bit bad coz maybe she felt i was slacking off a bit and didnt bother, or maybe i shdlve called her back..either way its too late now.. so went gym, which i told her i would, so maybe she didnt call coz she knew i would be out..gym was refreshing, always is..had leftovers for lunch and a bit of mini meatpies, mmm soo goood. then read the java textbook for a bit. nearly fell asleep..later that night played settlers of catan with family which was long but fun and ended way too late, like midnight.. went up to do some last minute studying, then sherman msns me abt another problem with jess =/ i think he really has it in for her, he seems to find something knew that upsets him abt her every week, i dont know how true this one was tho, it was basically related to the 'door' incident which was my fault, his phone hasnt been working lately which caused him to be late one night, miss a meeting with a friend, etc and apparently it was because jess entered a new number into his phone called 'jess's friend' which was infact his number? anyways long story short, his voicemail was labeled jess's friend, and was conflicting with incoming calls and voicemail..he wasnt happy abt it, but i know she wouldnt have done something like that. that was abt an hr and a half ago, its 230 now and i am falling asleep, gonna call it a night and just continue study tmr..i wonder how this week will pan out, things are getting more n more complicated and uni workload is starting to pile up >< *sigh* songofthemoment anything from gabe bondoc will suffice

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