I am well now. Of course, I still feel some sadness, sparesely. But I think the remedy was to get rid of the shitty person in my life. Oddly enough, I think the small amount of time that Stephanie and I have been really close has done me loads better than the entirety of Katherine's friendship. I don't think she realizes all I wanted to be happier was to be out more, to meet people. I am a social animal; I love being around people. I was not, never was you. Also: I think I still would like to know Matt. He is so attractive, intelligent, nice. Why would I risk it otherwise? My first impressions are usually spot-on. I should just try more directly, once more? I will. I promise myself.