• i swear to god that the universe doesn't want me to be happy. one little good thing happens to little ol' bianca and then its gone. always trying to keep me down. cause now i've met one of the greatest persons i've possibly ever met. everything that i've ever wanted and in 5 months he's moving across the fucking country. i honestly dont ask for a lot but i think i might start cause the little i do ask for i dont get so why not ask for that i wont get either. i cant take this anymore. i'm entitled to my fucking happiness so let me fucking have it. this is the worst feeling in the world. i guess i'm just a little bit of a hopeless romantic. i kinda thought he'd be that guy that i meet and end up dating all through high school and then its college and we go our separate ways but i'd always have our memories to look back on of course the likeliness of this happening is about a one in a million chance but still i probably would have dated him for at least 6 month but now that's not even going to be possible. it just brings every emotion of despair that i've been able to block out the last few weeks to come rushing back. i'm not sure how much more of this i can take. honestly i just want this to all end. i want to be happy for more than a week for once in my life. i guess that being happy means i dont have to write in the journal cause theres nothing to rave about and then all the sudden theres so much. cause you know something else i hate fake people. i hate people who say they're your friend but dont act like it. you wanna be my friend well actions speak louder than words so fucking act like it. i hate people who pretend to give two shits when they really dont even give one. its just so stupid. i dont want to have a "friend" you dont like me straight up tell me it'll make it so much easier. i'm basically just so sick of this world. i want real people, real love for each other, and real living, real experience, i'm so sick of everything. so sick, so sick, so sick.........

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