• Today.. I was fried. Emotionally so. I don't even know what to think about what I think anymore. I think I like three guys. Oh yes, Rosemary what's new.. You always have some guy you like. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some pretty preppy princess type whos terminally boy crazy {{I kinda don't like those ppl}}. But what sucks is that: 1. I've liked Ryan for two years and STILL can't get over him even though 2. I'm dating Cameron {{and have had two other boyfriends before him; neither of which were Ryan, and one of which I have many regrets with.. :\}}, but yet that doesn't stop me from 3. Liking Cory, who is dating my best friend. But I'm not even sure about the last. Although it seems like it.. We were talking last night, Cordell and I. About pretty much everything. First we talked about my problem with Ryan.. And he really related. I said something about liking attention from guys way too much and thinking that was most of the problem. Seeing as I have a really bad habit of being a flirt and leading guys on. {{Except I didn't say that last part}} Anywho, He said he related to that. He's dating Kirstie but thinks he likes Yvette. And as long as I'm being stark honest, it really disappointed me. I wanted to be her. But I spose he wouldn't really tell me if he did.. Haha. And I know he likes Tacy cuz of their little "date" the other night. Well anyways.. we were talking about how he's an amazng chef and I told him "Well I'm jelous.. you'll have to make me something sometime." And he said "I'll make you some sugar cookies." So then I accused him of trying to make me fat {{haha}} and he said "You're all skin and bones." Then he's like "You have one of the best bodies in the school. If you don't mind me saying." Bah! Cory you can't say those kinds of things to me.. And then I think he might invite me to prom. Which would be cool. Cuz then maybe he can finally take me to a party. :D Like he says he will. And then make sure I don't get drunk.. ?? Well wheres the fun in that?? He said he would stay sober cuz he wouldn't want to "try to make a move on me". Ha.. That made me laugh. And wonder.. What would it be like if I kissed Cory? Wow. Bad Rosemary. >.< My mind is officially screwed up. Screwed over. And holy poop I sound emo. Haha.. I'm totally not. Like the exact opposite. Theres just so much going through my head at the moment. Like the whole Ryan thing. I think I read into his actions way too much.. but I don't know how to stop the way I think. I dunno.. you decide: 1. He stole Christopher's iPod last week when we were in the library. When he went to give it back to her {{we were sitting Ryan, Me, Christopher. I was in the middle. See?}}, he put his left hand on my shoulder and reached around behind me with his right arm to put it back on the table beside her. 2. Well, first off, before that, he chose to sit next to me. He could've sat next to Spencer or at the end of the other row of computers. 3. He talks to me all the time during Mrs. Berdnt's class. When he's playing a game, he'll be all "Oh this game is really hard" or "This level is really hard." And then I'll end up rolling my chair closer to him to watch him play and we'll just sit like that. Or sometimes he'll watch me play a game. But yeah. 4. He plays the same songs over and over.. and I know this sounds rediculous but I feel like their messages to me. Songs in question: Everything I Want - The Maine All I Want - Staind Ok I have to get off so I'll continue my ramble at a later date.. So much to say.. Meh. Peace.

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