i just cant do it. im sitting in a fucking bathtub b/c i have no other place i feel safe to go at home. at my own fucking home, i have been refined to a bathtub because theres a lock on the door and nobody can get in. im done. everyone says they understand. that they've been here. but the truth is. no one ever understands what anyone is going through because everyones life is different. i cant tell you how many times she told me to move out. just this night she told me "if you go to the mall, dont even bother coming home". how many other people would like to hear that? then she told me to rent an apartment b/c i wasnt wanted. i almost did go, and i wudnt have come home. but i had no place to go. thats the problem of being a kid. u have no money, no means of transportation, and oh yeah, no legal rights. if i ran away, i wud be committing a crime. lucky me. i'd rather be locked up in a sweaty, smelly jail then here any day. i know everyone has their own problems to deal with. i get that. but dont tell me i make everyhting about me and all that other shit. im done with everyone talking shit abotu me. its uncalled for. its unneccissary. i try to be there. i try more than you will EVER know. you guys are the only ones keeping me here. don't blow it.