• I should probably be cramming stupid chem material into my brain, but i just can't do it not that i can't do it ever, just not right now i can keep it waiting until when i get home and open my box so i don't have to feel the resentment dripping off me melting down my skin i want adderall forever i feel so safe and sane and focused but dependency scares me even more than just being so i guess i have to hope the urge will pass Chris is being a dick again whatever, i dont care it doesn't really matter not to him, atleast so why should it to me? I think i might get with dan he's cute, even though he's not really my type not that i have a type well, other than guys who treat me like shit lol not that that's funny really, i just have to laugh to keep from hurting bad but anyway, he's nice and i need someone to care about who isn't chris or matt sigh midterms should end now i dislike them strongly even if they are a good excuse to do drugs i get to watch rock of love bus when i get home apparently the girl i liked made out with the drummer figures i should have known she was a closet ho people make me angry my mother, for one my sister fat people bratty children liberals chris stupid bitches judgemental people god, the list goes on and on i'm a horrible person, just like matt said but i don't feel horrible because i'm not acting on that anger it's just there, like being smart or good at golf i'm not using it to define me i really should work on my poem book more often i have a main character now i don't know how she turns out i'm writing the poems all out of order i take song titles and write about what it makes me think of and then i guess whenever i'm done i'll rearrange them to make sense or not i could just leave it crazy but anyway, i think i'm done i'm in the school library with no one i should go be sociable with e maybe i'll come back tonight when i'm too in tune to sleep

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