the whole breaking up thing wasnt all his fault. i am the one who asked him if he still had feelings for me. i am the one who kept dragging the convorsation out longer then it needed to be and longer then i wanted it to be. i found out things i didnt want to know. i heard things i never thought i'd hear. and i cant handle it all at once. or maybe not at all. but whats done is done and i have to live with it and try to move on as best as i can and as fast as i can. i cant stand wallowing like this for much longer... its been 2 days now, and i sent him a text. it said "look, idk if u think i hate you b/c i dont. i cud never hate you. this is just new and its going to take time. " this is totally true. i could never hate him. hes too nice a person to hate. even after he did it, he kept sending me emails or txts saying how sorry he was. and i dont blame him. yeah it sucks and even though he did it, we still had feelings for each other. maybe not the same ones, but they were there. prompt and present. and he said Hey, thanks for the txt; I didnt want us to hate each other at all, I jsut knew I couldnt do more right now, and i wanted you to be able to have whatever u want; sunday's ok then? cool. how could i hate some one who is so selfless? he just wanted me to be happy, and even though im not that happy right now, i think i'll be better in the future. he'll get better. we'll all get better and in the end we'll remain friends