i am so fucking sick of everything. the drama, the fighting, and just life in general. everything seems to be irritating me lately and im getting really annoyed with it (see?) and i just dont know what to do. i know i shouldnt do anything drastic but sometimes i cant help it. like the other night. i know that what i did was wrong. believe me i know, but it felt so god damn good that i've done it again. i feel so ashamed of it because i see how its fucked up other peoples lives and just, idk. im getting pissed at everyone. My dad yelled at me for eating a bowl of cereal and i almost flipped and screamed "WTF shannon is allowed ot drink cocoa, and u can eat chips, and yet i cant have a fucking bowl of Life cereal?!" like honestly. im just so annoyed with everyone and i feel like im pushing people away and i dont knwo what to do about it or how to deal with it because inside, its tearing me up. im falling apart more and more at the seams each day and its scary. its scaring the shit out of me, and if i come totaly undone, what will become of me then? what will i become?