so my title has nothing to do with my entry hahahaha my survey made me do it. today was intense. well, a short moment of today was intense. its about an ex boyfriend - long story short - he had a scary serious drug problem and left me scared EVERY SINGLE DAY that i was gunna hear he OD'd. he came really, really close a bunch of times. in like october, he told me he was done. done with using. he wasn't touching ANYTHING anymore. it made me so happy, i literally almost cried. today, he came up to me in gym. he was odd. rocking back and forth, eyes kinda red and watery. him - "hey! guess where i'm gunna be for christmas!" me - "hmmm, i don't know, where?" him - "...rehab." he proceeded to tell me that he almost OD'd last night. he told me that some new girl he was seeing got him back to using. he told me she lied to him and kept telling him that they were gunna stop together. only every time they hung out, they'd use. she supplied. i've never seen him have a look like the one he had while he was telling me this. i almost cried, in the middle of gym class. and it looked like he almost did the same. i told him he scared me, and he always did. he told me he would let me know how he was, and keep me updated with what was happening. he told me he was really going to get help. he said he didn't have much choice anymore. it was scary. really, really scary. i mean, it was good because he's getting help. but it reminded me of how i told myself i would never feel ever again. genuinely terrified for his life. i hated that feeling. and for the first time in like 2 years, i felt it in the pit of my stomach. i really hope he gets straightened out. he needs to. but anyway. i have this playlist of pretty, pretty songs. and i'm listening to it now. so i'm gunna use it for this survey. What song best represents my personality? sleep tonight [stars] ...not really. What song will be played at my funeral? love is a fast song [copeland] most likely not Will I ever love somebody? if you're not the one [daniel bedingfield] ....aw Will I be successful in life? original sin [aeroplane, 1929] huh? Will I get married even if my love life is out of shape? the night will go as follows [the spill canvas] seriously, sweetest lyrics ever. someone please, PLEASE, say all of these things to me. Will anyone accept me for who I am? on your porch [the format] i love this song so much, but yeah it doesn't fit here. well, it sorta does - 'whats left to lose? youve done enough. and if you fail well then you fail but not to us. cause these last three years, i know they've been hard. but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone' How will I die? maybe [secondhand serenade] oh no, that's not vague at all. Who will kill me? sweet darlin' [she and him] apparently not, seeing as they're gunna kill me. Will I be a murderer myself? you had me at hello [a day to remember] doesn't work. but god, i love this song (: How has my life been so far? this old wound [dashboard confessional] yeah, more or less What is my current obsession? don't call me peanut [bayside] why yes, i am quite obsessed with this song. and bayside in general What song best represents my friendship with others? halcyon daze [hidden in plain view] not at all What is my ideal holiday destination? the war [mêlée] NO THANKSSSS What is my sexuality? A [cartel] hahahahahahaha no, i am not asexual. Why are you taking yet another shuffle quiz? the night life [the starting line] hahaha, oh yeah this survey is one helluva party What's currently in your fridge? jersey girl [bruce springsteen!] ew, i would hope not. thats like some CSI shit. Your biggest nightmare? don't mind if i do [the boy judas] ....? What place would you like to visit? the garden [mirah] oh yay! i love when they make sense A reason to commit suicide? between the bars [chris garneau, elliott smith cover] oh hey creepy, elliott allegedly committed suicide. this song is so haunting. Why are we here? the longer i run [peter bradley adams] amazing amazing amazing amazing song. but it doesn't fit the question really Something you never dared to say to someone? take me with you [secondhand serenade] oh wow, that works really well One thing the world really doesn't need? a lack of color [death cab for cutie] so true What's your biggest unfulfilled wish? this isn't it [the boy judas] this works so fucking well. If you could invent something, what would it be? the sound of silence [simon & garfunkel] ooo, i like that idea The last thing you say before you die? make it happen [the early november] borderline epic What's your destiny? bridge over troubled water [simon and garfunkel] not really a destiny, but whatever. What do you do when you're alone in an elevator? dancing [elisa] very true Why do people go fishing? hearts and arrows [the minus scale] i don't think that's why people fish... What would you do with your slaves? we will erase all life on earth but us [say anything] hahahaha that weirdly fits in Is there a man on the moon? everything sometime [the boy judas] ...oh? What does Hell look like? stars [evergreen terrace, hum cover] well there's an interesting thought About what would you like to write a book? walking by [something corporate] that's doable The best thing ever is...? my body is a cage [arcade fire] yeah no, this song is not a good thing Why did the chicken cross the road? save us [cartel] soopurchikin comin to sayv us all? (....go on icanhascheezburger.com and you'll get it) Why do you listen to music? bring back love (year 2020) [ace enders and a million different people] well, that's why ace WRITES music. that counts i guess. What do you do when you're alone and nobody's watching? hard to say [the used] yeah, i guess this works Why are other people so stupid? some will seek forgiveness, others escape [underoath] soooo no explaination on the stupidity...? Last thing you ate? let it be me [ray lamontagne] hahaha only not Why is grass green? i told you so [ace enders and a million different people] apparently, i told you already Your phone is ringing, but who's on the other end? no sunlight [death cab] ...creepy What should you stop doing? caring is creepy [the shins] yeah, i probably should stop caring. A word of advice to the readers of this quiz? the kids don't stand a chance [vampire weekend] also true If your life was a movie, what would your soundtrack be? [for this, im switching back to all my songs. not just the playlist] Opening Credits: tonight's entertainment [stick to your guns] hell yeah, i'm feelin it Waking Up: people like you are why people like me exist [say anything] good soundtrack so far! First Day At School: single ladies [beyonce] HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHA, guilty as charged. Falling In Love: good will hunting by myself [ludo] oh nice. everyone wants a humorous breakup song to be the soundtrack of their love. Fight Song: tilting the hour glass [alesana] eh, kinda sorta maybe but not really... maybe when it gets to the part like 'no one else will fight! no one else will fight! so i must.' followed by a half decent-ish breakdown. haha i'm not that huge of a fan of alesana. Breaking Up: sowing season [brand new] idk if i would consider this a breakup song, but i guess it could work. love this song though