• Today was fairly easy to get through I actually set my alarm correctly this morning and finished my math homework (yay me!)and was still able to function like a normal person despite the lack of sleep tonight i'm trying to stay up until 12:30 so i have time for both hw and things that don't actually make me want to kill myself I ended up commenting on random songs on here, which i haven't done for a while it's nice, understanding something for once usually i'm just kind of lost and unopinionated in a crowd Speaking of being lost in a crowd, S came to writing school with me today! ah, it was so exciting! I felt so much more sane with her there, like i didn;t have to try to stand out or fit in we just kind of were, our own little atom, standing side by side for some reason, the transition of automatically having my best friend with me was almost seemless she and i are so similar, it was just kind of expected that we'd end up in the same place We had to see an opera though, which made me fall asleep I should probably feel guilty for not appreciating art or whatever, but i don't i'm not sure if that makes me a bad person or just an apathetic one hmmmm S and I were talking on the bus with E, my holland friend about being scene and doing drugs when we get to college It sounds so fucked up and crazy when i say i want to screw with my body and mind on purpose, but i still think it's so necesary It's just that here, trapped in a rich white town, i feel like i have no experience i don't want to stay boring and normal forever i think i need something bad, or atleast something fucked up, to happen to me so i can actually have an opinion on suffering I wouldn't do it as a lifestyle, more as a social experiment as in i will tell myself, okay this evening you will try extasy and party all night, but tomorow you have a math final to study for and then i will actually get it all done, the way i do now, with doing my homeowrk at midnight and five in the morning because no one even knows the difference anyhow

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