im so sick and tired of people butting in and making assumptions and comments abotu things they know NOTHING about. fucking butt out of my relationship. you dont know anything about it and why some things happen. im so tired of always having to defend him. everyone is always tooling on him and our relationship b/c its "funny". well haha. too bad im not actually laughing and neither is he. its so immature and annoying and you should all fucking grow up already. we're in friggin high school. grow up!

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im so afraid. i think i might need surgery again. i cried myself to sleep the week before i had the first one. i dont want to have it again. i cant handle it.

im going to wait a week. if it doesnt go away, i'll have to go to the doctors to have it checked out, but it looks just the way the first one did. im really scared. i cant go through this again. not now. not ever