I've been doing an awful lot of self-reflection lately. Way too much. It's too much cos I'm beginning to get scared. I think I'm a good person. But then, according to religious people, like my roommate, you can't officially be a good person unless you believe what they do. And I can't manage that. I don't have that much faith in anything at all.
Graarghh.
Stop thinking. I need to. These thoughts are recurring so much lately. And what's weird is that they're not just late at night when I can't sleep anymore. I'm thinking when I'm wide awake. It's 8.38 in the evening at the moment, and I just had a massive freakout. I don't know who I can talk to about this. I don't know who I can tell. I don't know if my thoughts will make sense to anyone else when I try to translate them into conversation. And I don't know if I want to burden anyone else with the huge weight my thoughts bring.
Listening to: "Just Like Heaven" - The Cure
I've been doing an awful lot of self-reflection lately. Way too much. It's too much cos I'm beginning to get scared. I think I'm a good person. But then, according to religious people, like my roommate, you can't officially be a good person unless you believe what they do. And I can't manage that. I don't have that much faith in anything at all.
Graarghh.
Stop thinking. I need to. These thoughts are recurring so much lately. And what's weird is that they're not just late at night when I can't sleep anymore. I'm thinking when I'm wide awake. It's 8.38 in the evening at the moment, and I just had a massive freakout. I don't know who I can talk to about this. I don't know who I can tell. I don't know if my thoughts will make sense to anyone else when I try to translate them into conversation. And I don't know if I want to burden anyone else with the huge weight my thoughts bring.